So confused about... Everything. I feel scared and alone.

I'm 14 years old and female. Up until the age of roughly 12, I was the spitting image of my mother and regurgitated all of her opinions when asked. I became close friends with two people, both of who are very liberal--I'll call them A and K. K used to regurgitate her parents' opinions too until she met A, and then A taught her to be herself. K introduced me to A and the two of them did the same to me.
I started to realize how liberal and humanitarian my opinions are, vs. both of my parents' very conservative and traditional views. Along with this I realized that I was not straight. And that I also was not bi. Nor was I homo. And definitely not asexual. So what was I?
I told K and A that I was questioning. K is questioning as well. She thinks maybe pansexual or panromantic asexual, but she's not sure. A is a lesbian.
Now I've started dressing more scene, listening to CitizenRadio, taking a stand on mental disorders and psychology. Instead of acting like a hyper extrovert like my mom, I've become what I'm more comfortable being--introverted. Shy. (Sometimes very sensitive, almost the opposite of my mom.) My mom yells at me a lot about my hair, about my clothes, and about my music. She claims that "I'm not really introverted, shy or sensitive, the psychology is depressing me, and I didn't act this way until I met A!"
I'm Greek Orthodox Christian. Born and raised, and absolutely sure that I definitely DO actually have those views and was not just raised that way. However, my brother recently came out as an atheist to my parents, which was a disaster.
Whenever my mom meets someone bi, homo, etc. she always talks about how dirty and wrong it is. She says a lot of the time that "bisexual people are just whores who go around with whoever they want", or "are very confused with emotional disorders." And it kills me to hear her say that.
I have a boyfriend who I love very much, and he knows about me questioning. So do A and K, and about 2 other very close friends of mine, and my brother.
But I can't tell my parents because I know what they would do. They would send me to therapy for it, scream a lot, my mom would probably cry, I'd never be allowed to talk to K and A again, and my brother would be blamed for "poisoning me with his atheism!" I don't really blame my parents, I just know I can't come out to them. They think they're right because they were raised that way and are set in their ways. I'm also scared of going to Hell now...
I'm not bi but I'm not straight either. I usually fantasize about girls sexually, and if I ever watch... dirty things, lesbian is definitely more affective physically, but straight makes me feel a bit turned on, too, not just lesbian, even though that makes me significantly moreso.
However, I can not see myself dating a girl. It's not that I'm scared of it being an option--I just can't see it happening. I can only see myself dating guys.
So basically, I want to date guys, but I'm attracted to girls and guys, and sexually I prefer girls over guys even though I would like both.
Does this make me a heteroromantic bisexual, or what?

 

@spectrumsigner
Thank you for saying I'm loved and supported--it's really nice to know that I can talk about anything here.
I know that I don't have to have it figured out, I just want to... More of because even if I'm not consciously thinking about it I feel like it's always weighing on the back of my mind, you know? It would be like a load off my shoulders if I could figure it out and be sure. But I know I probably won't get it completely figured out for awhile yet, as love and sexuality and all of that you have to be very mature before you fully develop...


@Colours
Were you just... not attracted to girls romantically, or could you not see it? It's hard for me to explain it... I've never had a crush on a girl, I've never wanted to date a girl, but if I get in really close proximity or something I'm as sexually attracted as I would be to a guy... Romantically girls are kind of almost a turn off, rather than something I just can't see. This may change, maybe my brain is trying to process it piece by piece instead of all at once, but currently I think I would identify as heteroromantic...



@J Snow
If me and my boyfriend break up I'll try to remain open until I figure it out. ^_^ Thank you for wishing me well with all of this. (*hug*)



This may sound like a really stupid question to you guys but I'm, obviously, new to the whole questioning thing and figuring things out and haven't really opened up to anyone this much about it before, so... Is there a way to kind of... not really evaluate it, but for lack of better word we'll use that one? Like maybe questions you could ask yourself to help you figure it out or something... I don't know. It's probably not that simple. I feel like if it were that simple every questioning person in the world would have it figured out in less than a month. :lol: Ignore me if that's as stupid as I think it is.