help a bi girl out!? again

Yeah, I can pretty much relate, I'm really new on the forum too. I've been around reading for a while but decided to get an account. I kind of consider/ed myself bi, but I'm getting more confused as time goes on. I wouldn't say I got angry in the last relationship I tried with a girl as far as hugging or kissing or whatever, I just wasn't that interested on it. She commented on how I seemed really "distant" or "distracted", and it just didn't end up working out. I couldn't at the time put a finger on what I was distracted or whatever, I just wasn't into it.

 

Yeah it's a strange feeling, having had straight encounters that worked out fine before but now they aren't really working out. I'm at the point where I'm considering I could be gay and not bi...are you kind of thinking something along the same lines? What I can't figure out is if I just haven't met any of the right girls lately...they are far and few between at the school/town I live in...it's a 90% guy school, the girls just plain suck in general, and the gays are not my type (out of the ones I have met).

 

I have those moments occasionally. I just don't want a guy anywhere near me, I want a chick whose boobs I can squish, lol. I have the same feeling of "Will I be good?" a lot, also. I'm sure if, when you do get into a relationship, or even a situation where "something" might happen, if you tell her it's been a while, she'll understand. Let her take the lead, and once you become comfortable, then you can take over, if you like.

 

I worry about that fact it's been a while for me with a guy too, and I've never actually developed an actual relationship with a guy. I have a problem with really falling for close straight friends too, and hoping that they might just be in the closet. My heart flutters at being with those guys I'm into, but very few guys actually tickle my fancy. I'm definitely more relationship oriented, and connect with someone's personality first, which for me makes it a little harder to figure out what I want. I get nothing except feeling dirty after hookups...and not knowing any gay guys makes it hard to connect. But I have that feeling that if I did have a relationship with that someone special it would be amazing, but the thing is, that hasn't happened so I just don't know for sure.

 

I've kind of tried it in the past. However, I live in a kind of small town in northern arizona called prescott, and there is nothing for about 90 miles in either direction at least. It probably would have worked back in chicago lol.

 

Did this repulsion to guys happen suddenly, or has it always been there? I don't want to tell you how you should identify, but I do think you should consider that you might be gay. I mean, you don't want to share basic physical affections with guys anymore.

Also, a real partner who cares about you will get past inexperience. I didn't have my first positive sexual experience until this year, and I'm 23. She will teach you things, and you'll teach her things.

 

Hey! I totally get where you are coming from. I am just not into the kissing and cuddling with guys, which is why I guess I'm a bit more than just questioning, but it's easy to be with a guy because there are absolutely no feelings involved for me.