So those of you who are familiar with me know that I have no qualms with who I am. It was mostly a huge relief to know I wasn't just some freak-a-zoid who felt they weren't supposed to be the gender they were. And coming out to my Mum as being transgendered was far easier and better than I ever anticipated... I know for a fact she spoke to my Nan (grandmother) about this - it was always known to me that she'd tell someone. Nan hasn't said anything but she definitely would've if she felt strongly about it in a bad way. I definitely want to tell the rest of my family. And therein lies the largest of problems. My brother. I think I would be able to handle it if everyone else in my family was repulsed or angered or upset... but I don't think I could live through it if my brother was like that. He's not just my little brother, he's my best friend and the one person in this whole world who I love without question even when he is being the most irritating of asshats. I've been trying to tell him since before I told Mum, but I keep backing out. I'm not exactly sure what I'm trying to accomplish with this post... mostly I think I just need to tell someone my fears. So yeah...
I think that you actually want to people to tell you to come out to your brother. You need support right now, and, of course, you'll find it here(*hug*) Having said that, you didn't tell anything about your brother. I mean, we don't know if he is homophobic (know it's not the same thing, but sadly, for a large number of people it's still a same thing), or if he is indifferent to the matter. That tells me you don't see him as a potentially hatter of the idea, so it comes to the natural fear to being rejected. As your brother, he may not be as willing to think of you on a different way, but if what I see through your words is true, he may not have a problem at all. Well, he may take his time to come to terms with it*, but I think that, in the end, he will gladly accept you. Anyway, do't tell him right away, take your time, and look for a opportunity where you feel confortable and confident on yourself.(*hug*) ----- *As I told my friends: "It took me 19 years to accept me, I don't expect you to accept me in 19 minutes".
