Hi there , recently I've started seeing myself as gay due to a strong sexual attraction towards guys, yet emotionally I can't seem to drop the idea I want to be straight with a pretty girlfriend although I am afraid this isn't possible as when I look at sexual images of women I feel nothing other than she's pretty / sexy.When I see sexual images of men however I'm easily turned on. My problem is I make deeper connections with women on a day by day basis and although sexually I enjoy being with a guy romantically I prefer women. Thoughts ? This is rather annoying.
When I was younger before I fully accepted the fact that I was gay, I felt exactly the same way. Guys completely turned me on, but I didn't think I'd be able to have a romantic relationship with one since I felt it was kind of gross and wrong to feel that way. Once I let down some of the walls that I had built up in my head around being gay, things just started to fall into place as I let myself be open to having feelings for guys that went to a deeper level than just sexual. I think once you fully realize and embrace the fact that you're gay and that there's nothing wrong that, then things will start to look up a bit. Are you sure that you really feel "romantically attracted" to women and not just love/care for them on a deep friend level?
I dono all I know is I look at lady parts I actually lose arousal ha ha , in the past I had sex with my ex gf though with no problem other than lack of connection when kissing.
