I know stupid question, but people tell me that I am just mistaken, that I am destroying a wonderful relationship and family just because I *think* I am gay. I try to explain it to them, I even said I be more than willing to show them. :eek: *they didn't think that was funny* I act masculine, because that is how I have kept myself all these years. The last month I notice that I feel different and do act different when I am around people I don't know. more feminine I guess. But as soon as I am around people I know I seem to revert back to masculine movements again. This is very frustrating. I know I am gay, I think about guys all the time, I see hot guys online, *non-porn* and I get shivers over my body. Women, meh. My desire to be with a guy is like crazy hormone city here. Where in the world did this 16 yr old libido come from. :icon_redf I spent most of my life believing that being Gay/Bi/Trans was always a choice, BOY was I SO WRONG. I cannot go back into the closet I won't go back I know who I am and I don't want to be straight. I would LOVE to be in a wonderful relationship with a warm and fantastic guy. Sorry, I guess I rambled.
I think you answered your own question. It is often really hard to come to terms with your sexuality and it is even harder for your family and friends to accept. It sounds to me like you know you aren't mistaken. I think you might just need to start living your life the way you have wanted to. It is a long and hard process to be all the way out and to find someone to love, but it is so worth it.
Thank you I'm sorry I sometimes get into a pitty party thinking I am alone in this, and I have been coming here since coming out and I know better
Don't worry about it. Sometimes it just helps to hear someone else say what you are thinking out loud.
