I've put some posts up here about a guy I have been crushing on and whether not I should tell him. I had listened to the advice giving and decided that I should because somehow this felt different and I've debated on it for months and months. The more we talk online and hang out , these feelings would continue to grow. Its to hard for me to be friends with him so I wrote him a email. I don't want to regret it but I can't help it. Now when I see him I can't decide whether to smile or throw up. I don't think he knows I wrote the email because I didn't put my name on it. I also sent it from a brand new email address. I thought that if the feeling was mutual he'll know I wrote it. I really hate these silly games but its my way for protecting my self. Thinking back on past advise I think I did the wrong thing. I hate feeling weak. I wish I could get over him but when ever I think I am, he does or says something that makes me believe we're a couple of words away from something great. What is it that makes me like him and stops me from pursuing a real relationship with someone I know is gay. If only the world wasn't so stupid, the lgbt youths could have normal, less stressful lives. Now I'm mad. If I ever see a person holding a sign against lgbt rights......it is on!!! Like Donkey Kong.
