Weird title, I know, but it's literally what I am feeling. I like, and I mean LIKE, this butch type of girl and I kinda/sorta like this feminine girl. I use butch and feminine since that's how I can say 'tomboyish, dresses like a dude and dressing like a girl girl'. But anyway, I like like them both but I don't know which one to go to. I don't want to be looking desperate and going for one then the other but I don't want to not go to either. But here's my problems with both girls: Butch girl: I like her a lot but I don't know what to do. She's super guy like and I find that a huge turn-on and she's just hot in general. But while trying to get her name, I talked to her cousin, who I did not know was her cousin to begin with, and she said that that her cousin is a lesbian but she's kind of rude and straight forward. So if I were to go to her and just like ask to talk to her she said she'll mostly just look and me and be like 'what the f*** who are you?' or just ignore me since we don't know each other. Then she said she might not be my type cause she's like more masculine and built and I'm more skinny and unbuilt and stuff. But I can't get her out of my head and I'm afraid of harsh rejection. Feminine Girl: I know her name but I don't want to type it and all but I like her a little less than the first girl but I'm 90% sure she's straight. Something about her come's off as straight but I talk to her a little and we kind of know each other. But I don't want to do this again: Go to a girl who I'm kind of friends with, tell her I like her, get the 'I'm straight and stuff' talk, and then (Sometimes) get the ignore and forget treatment. But I do kind of like her and she's cool and nicer, as it seems, than the first girl and she's more my type of girl. So do I do nothing and wait, which is agonizing because I liked both girls since school started, I really like the butch girl and I know she's gay but she's the more rude one and might not be my type and I think she's older than me, like a grade level, but I also like the more feminine girl who I know a little more, I actually know her name, she's my grade level, but she might be straight. I really need advice because most of my friends are straight or gay guys and in my situation, they have no advice and told me to ask a gay friend but they're gone half the time and the other half I don't see them. And I can't trust my family because they believe I'm going through a phase. Please, help me! By the way: I'm a tenth grader (10th, Sophomore In case) and I am 15 and the butch girl looks like she's a junior and 16 or something.
Alright, as much as I wish I had something useful to say here, my brain simply isn't supplying me with anything that could be of use. But I am going to bump this for you in the hopes that someone better equipped than me can handle your concerns. Good luck, hun. :]