Ok, this sucks ass. i need help before i go back to school.

Ok, the first thing I'd suggest you do is take a deep breath. It sounds like from your post you're going through a lot of things, right now. To recap. what I read:
- You were rejected by someone you lusted for
- You were outed to friends before you were ready
- You're annoyed at being teased by your friends for being gay/liking Brandon
- Someone you don't care about has a crush on you (and you can't do anything, because you're "not supposed to know")
- You're having family issues
- You're friends are having issues
- You're drifting away from your best friend

I'm not sure if I can address all of those problems, but in response to your thoughts about Brandon: He's made your life hell, and you still lust for him. He has nothing you're looking for personality-wise, but you find him incredibly attractive. If you ask my advise, I'd say ditch him. Sure, he's hot. But, there are other hot guys in the world. You said yourself he has nothing you're looking for, besides looks. Yeah, I know you don't want to (or at least have mixed feelings about) let[ting] him go. I think, in you're current situation, that's probably the best thing to do. You know he doesn't want you. Just move on.

I'll let someone else have a shot at some of the other things you mentioned. Or, you could elaborate a bit more on them. Am I correct in what I was reading, what I put in my list?

 

You love him?!? Well that might be a shocker to say to someone when they are merely acquainted with you. Though he may have acted irrationally, it isn't abnormal to get such a response from such a strong term of endearment.

Whenever you tell someone that you are gay, you must be ready to mitigate a possible scenario where the information will be disbursed, even to those you might not want to know. If you are not completely out, this can be worrisome, though the biggest thing that you can do is accept yourself for who you truly are and don't deny it. It is human nature to tell people things that are "secret", especially if it was traumatic information.

Brandon doesn't want anything to do with you know. Leave it like that, if and when he is ready to talk about it, he'll let you know. Until then, anything that you might do may only increase the resentment toward you. Looks are free game though, so catch that quick glance in P.E. class, if you must. Just remember, keep the eye on the ball, or your ego may not be the only thing that gets bruised in the end.

Teenagers say stupid things. Well, adults say stupid things too. That is one of the privileges of being gay. You get to hear all sorts of stupid comments about your sexuality. If you let them get to you, you'll end up with an ulcer. If you laugh it off, this too shall pass. You'll be old news by next week, and someone else will be the target of hurtful comments.

Alright, now as for Aaron, the roles are reversed. It is your time to shine. If he asks, politely decline and offer him a truthful, tactful reason for the decline.

You are 15, if Mister Perfect is out there, you have plenty of time to find him. If any of these guys, or someone completely different, have only a fraction of the qualities you seek don't turn them down just for the sake of finding that perfect person. You may be limiting periods of enjoyment between you and them, just because of a little flaw.

 

Step49x summed up most of it. However I also feel like you don't normally respond to love. Like you said in the end, you don't normally let love get to you. And I understand, you say that from experience. And my experience used to tell me that too. And nothing experience-wise changed for me, but I look at things differently now.

I know that even if I look for things I don't have to chase them. It takes a lot of inner strength, but you'll see that love is a part of you. Needed, but not everything.
With the crush... time will heal. Only with perspective will you see that those feelings were coming from an empty place, and were (are) trivial.
For that of course you'll need strength. You will need to rely on anyone and everything you hold dear to do it. And you know that you can always find that here, and I'm sure that many love you.

Teasing, joking, etc. is something that you'll have to put up with. Make them stop it if you can, talk to them if they're really your friends, they'll help you. They must understand that this is serious stuff, and it's getting to you.
There are still points for someone to get, and I hope we can be of help.

 

Glad I could help.

Now, how long have you known him for? How well do you know him. From what I read, I agree with justjoshoh that perhaps you acted a bit too quickly. Give it some time, and hopefully everything will settle down.

Hmm, I suppose if you want me to be there reminding you, check out my gallery, print one of my pics, and glue my quote to it. I'm sure it's not exactly what you were thinking of, but it's probably the next best thing... lol

 

I'm 46 years old today and I can tell you with absolute certainty that you don't fall in love with someone's nice body. You fall in love with with their soul. This person that you gave your love to, has no soul. He's a creep. Even if his feelings weren't returned, he could have the decency to say "I'm flattered but I'm sorry I don't feel the same way." Move on and realize that you have your whole life ahead of you and someday you will fall in love with someone's soul and know they are the one.

 

Well I read about halfway down and got to the conclusion - Beat his ass after school. yup...