Had a dream last night...but I'm not happy about it?

Let me start by saying that it's amazing you can remember the dream in such amazing details Second, you are so sweet! :O
Anyway, why would you define them as "confusing emotions"? It's just one and it's not confusing, love. Now, I don't know how old you are, but from what I read, you must either have a massively huge crush on Ryan or you're deeply in love with him, and that would be so romantic :3

Could you please explain, as I don't know, what's your current relationship with him? x

 

I have really vivid dreams like you too

Your feelings don't seem all that confusing to me when I read them. It's called being in love, I feel very similar to you when I think about the guy that I love.
Sad, depressed, upset, lost, happy, liberated, warm, caring, protective, etc.

When you care about someone so much, and they don't return it (I assume that is your case, feel free to correct me) it makes you feel upset but you still love them, so they make you happy, almost at the same time. Those contradictory feelings can be confusing, and even frustrating.

Your dream sounds awesome, can I have it?

 

I agree with nwonderlad and jvn95; that's not that confusing. You're more than likely in love. I think all of us are have those conflicting feelings when we think about someone who doesn't return our feelings. The person I love... Well, I have fantasies about us doing some of the most romantic things ever, and then I get so frustrated and angry because he most likely won't reciprocate my feelings.

Just don't worry about it. These are completely normal emotions that you go through when you're in love.

 

I can't tell how it is going togo since your relationship id relatively new, hopefully it will go well and I think his acceptance of your sexuality is +5 good sign. If you want your relationship to be more than a friendship the next part can be a little tricky, because you would have to tell him how you feel, and not everyone takes it the same way. I just hope ot doesn't end up like my relationship where the guy gets wierded out rejects you, outs you, then ignores you. Just be careful and if it does not work out PLEASE,PLEASE KNOW THAT IT IS NOT THE END OF THE WORLD. Although rejects hurts so good there is always another "Ryan" somewhere else with his own name and personality. So don't fret if it doesn't work out this is like .. what your first major crush? pssh please better guys out there. But anyways best of luck to you. I hope it works out and I hope you can be happy, because it really pays to be.

 

Dreams are dreams, and that's all there is to really say about them. I've had countless dreams about kissing, hugging, and interacting with my crushes, and I always wake up a little bummed out.

I don't think you're feelings are not confusing what-so-ever. Everybody ever will go through them, as do I. They are the joyous feelings from your crush, and then the upset feelings that arise from doubt and worry that he, Ryan, may not like you back.
I'm guessing that these dreams everybody has are a way to blot out all the doubt and bring about all the raw hope. But then again, I'm not a psycho-analyst, so just think about what I said, don't take anything for fact .

Upon waking up, you realize that your encounter with Ryan did not exist, so you probably feel sad because it was not real. You probably get the same sadness when you wake up from a dream involving you playing that video-game you really totally want that has yet to hit shelves, or waking up from a dream about going traveling to great locations.

However, when you have a nightmare you wake up relieved and happy. Say you have a dream where Ryan disowns you and calls you a slew of homophobic things. You'll wake up later saying "Thank God! It was a dream!"

So, yeah. In a nutshell, these emotions/dreams are not confusing, and many people, like everyone, has them. These dreams are manifested by our daily lives; our hopes, doubts, worries, etc.

I hope I helped! I'm pretty new here, and I don't know much about you or Ryan, but I hope he turns out to be a good friend or perhaps more

 

Wow, I just watched this episode today with my mom. I LOVE that scene in Ugly Betty. <3
Not very good at dream interpretation but I wish you luck in figuring it out. (*hug*)