So i'm starting to slightly wonder about my sexuality but its a bit complicated. I've never been attracted to a male friend or anything but occasionally i may have a fleeting thought that a guy may be a bit attractive. I grew up with six sisters and got made fun of quite a bit growing up, sometimes called f.ag and things like that. I suffer from anxiety and i think that maybe im just being paranoid that i may be somewhere between straight and bisexual. The thought of gay sex doesnt sound appealing to me and have been with many women and currently have a gf and have a healthy sex life with her. Though sometimes those thoughts drill into my head and very rarely i may lose my erection. Am i just being paranoid because of the verbal torment and having six sisters?
It all depends, your masculine side may be getting in the way or you may just be curious. If it doesn't really interest you and yet you still think about it every once and awhile it very well could just be curiosity. I wouldn't label yourself until you know for a fact, or don't label yourself at all. Just follow your heart.
Sounds like you are curious. Which is fine. Maybe act on your curiosity safely at some point to see if it is real attraction or your mind just playing tricks on you. I think all heterosexual people find the same sex attractive, I can find the opposite attractive and have been curious about them before and I am pretty fucking gay. So sexuality is more fluid than you think. I used to tease myself that I may be heterosexual because of these odd feelings, but once I acted on them I knew it was just curiosity and possible social bondage that forced me to try. You could be experiencing the same thing from a heterosexual point. It is nothing to rush into or worry heavily about, but it is good you recognize this, and are trying to figure it out. That`s better than completely ignoring it.
One of the easiest ways to get a better idea is to look at what is going on when you aren't really thinking about it. When you're at the beach, or the pool, or out at a mall or somewhere and aren't really thinking about it, where do your eyes wander? Guys or girls? When you watch porn, is it the guys or the girls that hold more interest? Have you tried watching gay porn? If not, give it a try and see if it is arousing. (It may be revolting to you too, which could be your conscious mind rejecting the idea you're gay, but if you find yourself aroused, it's likely there's something going on.) Same with masturbation fantasies. Try masturbating without porn and create fantasies in your mind. Where does your mind wander to when you aren't thinking? Do you find yourself more aroused thinking about girls? or about guys? If you can try some of the above and answer back with how it makes you feel, we can give you a clearer indication of what might be going on for you.
