There seems to be too many decisions to make now as I'm getting older. Argh!, colleges, places to live, and not to mention my orientation. I used to think I was Straight, then Bi, then I though I was Gay, but now I think I'm becoming more Bi and heading towards straight. I don't know, it's just that, lately, I've been gaining more interest in girls(More Mentally and emotionally, but also, yet to a lesser extent, physically) and losing the physical interest in men(And whatever tiny amount of emotional attraction I had). I mean, I have my buddies, and I love them to death, but it's not that same kind of "love". I have recently been able to masturbate to both women and men, but still primarily, men; something that I haven't been able to do before(Pornography is beginning to disgust me, and so is the idea of sex w/o a relationship). This is why I'm so confused, nothing is what I thought it was and it keeps changing. . . .with college ahead, I'm not sure if I should come out, especially being this uncertain. With guys I'm still more physically attracted to, but I'm more emotionally and psychologically attracted to women. I'm just so confused and want to know if any of you had had this problem, or similiar problem, before. :eusa_doh: :help:
You're still figuring yourself out. Things change. Just go with the flow for now, ride the boat of life and whatever happens will happen.
No advice to other here either - other than what is suggested above. This isn't something that is really 'straight' forward to figure out. See what college has in store for you. And yes - growing up means making more and more tough decisions. It's a fact of life. Good luck.
i think that almost every confused/wierd feeling/attraction/orientation has been felt by someone before, because we're all so varied. so don't worry about being a freak or with weird ideas... we're all wierd in our own way. hope that helps a little.
Sorry you're going through a time of frustration and confusion. I can attest to the fact that confusion is one of the most annoying things of all time. It may take you time to work everything out, but I think eventually everything falls into place. I'm 22 and I'm only just coming out of my confusion. Its tough, but just hang in there and go with the flow (and I know how hard that is, I like labels too much).
Also, don't assume that sexuality is a static thing. Often times, people have what can be described as a "fluid" (bi)sexuality, where it goes between the two ends of the spectrum. Figuring yourself out does suck... Not knowing who you are is quite possibly the greatest mental torture ever...
