I don't know what is my orientation

Well, only you can make the final decision. My guess would be bi, but you have to decide whether you think that fits, or something else does.

 

I would also guess that you are bisexual

 

It's difficult to say, but to me you sound straight, perhaps with some bisexual tendencies. How do you feel about having a relationship with a woman outside of the sexual aspects? Have you had crushes on girls? You mention having fantasies involving both men and women. However, fantasies are weird -- I still catch myself having straight fantasies in spite of having exactly zero desire for romantic or sexual contact with men.

Have you heard of the Kinsey scale? While it has its flaws, it does help you visualize sexuality as a spectrum. If I had a guess, your description seems to fit best in the range of Kinsey 0 (straight) to 2 (bisexual with slight heterosexual preference).

Of course, I could be completely wrong, too.

 

Your sexual orientation might still be changing. Some people's orientations keep changing their whole lives, and many more of us find that our preferences change in our teens and early twenties and then settle down.
The world is increasingly queer-friendly, so you can have a girlfriend, then a wife and a family if that turns out to be what you want.

 

only you can decide what you are for sure, but you sound totally strait to me.. just saying lesbian porn isnt real lesbians it is strait actors having sex with girls recorded for strait guys' pleasure. i know many girls who are strait and sometimes watch it that does not mean a thing at all.. if you can see yourself with a guy falling in love with him, kissing, sex, etc and you like it but cant see yourself falling in love with, kissing, having sex, etc. with a girl then thats means you're strait. reading this in my oppinion theres no question about your sexuality you are totally strait. but i dont know i might be wrong only you can know for sure

 

I felt the exact same way a while ago. The first time I ever masturbated was to a girl, but I thought it was normal for all straight girls, that was in 6th grade. I also could just masturbate to a beautiful girl in my aunt's prom magazine, even if it wasn't "sexy" I still never thought I was lesbian or even bi. Then in 8th grade I started thinking about it, I wondered why Girls turned me on so much if I was straight, but never got the experience to see if I was lesbian or not. I remember having lesbian crushes back then, but never knowing it was a crush. Also every guy I liked looked girlish, I only fell for guys that looked like girls. I dated tons of guys and did feel happy, but not happy enough to stay with them. Then in 9th grade I had my first real lesbian crush, and she liked me too. But when it didn't last I thought I was straight again. Then I got back into dating girls and had my first real gf, I had other female love interests and even more boyfriends, but I was still on that lesbian or bi fence. It was actually just recently that I realized I was completely lesbian(a few months ago). I think some guys are hot, but I realized that when I thought of my future life I pictured women. Specifically me marrying a woman, and that's when I realized I don't think I could marry a man ever and be genuinely happy. I'm not saying the same goes for you, some people just take time. Sometimes women don't even know they're gay until marriage to a man, same with guys. My guess is either bi sexual or bi curious. The thing is there are a lot of straight people women who are attracted to lesbian porn and women, but could never date or marry one. That's kind of like my friend. She's straight and thinks girls are hot and gets off on lesbian porn, but could never date a girl. However maybe you are a lesbian, you just need the experience to figure out whether or not you are. Yeah it sucks and takes time, but it's all worth it in the end. Good luck!

 

no none of that makes you a lesbian many strait girls can fantasize about women without actually beig a lesbian or even bi. as long as you cant see yourself doing any f it for real you are most likely strait

 

From what you've described I would say you are probably straight with some curious tendencies. I think you'll just have to realize that whatever you are isn't bad and it will take a bit of time to figure it out - because the internet really isn't a place where you will find a definitive answer...