Since I have had serous thoughts about being bi, one part of the whole thing as really bugged to the point making feel bad, depressed, confused and so on. Some times I feel great and the idea is pleasent with no issues. I can look at guys and think about them being cute, handsome and so on. Then there are times when I get upset at myself for even thing this way. I know for some people this can be a process to come to understand of your sexuality. But can the swings be so drastic, Any suggestion to help with the process? Right now I'm cool with the whole idea . But its getting where, when I feel this way I now get worried about my thinking changing how I will feel. I am also woundering if these changes, because my mood can be affected, is affecting my friends and family.
Tough situation... I would try to expose yourself to gay couples (watch queer as folk, the new normal, glee, modern family, etc) and maybe you would feel like its not that a big deal once you see examples. This helped me accept being my attraction towards guys. Also I'm not sure but maybe you have low self esteem and doubting yourself. Try not too, theres no rush to figure things out and it'll all work out for the best in the end
Jack off too Bisexual Porn. (With girls and boys, no lesbians, well, i think you can imagine what im saying), and its all good. Dont feel bad, it aint worth it.
I know exactly what you're going through. If we see Geek or Ravi or Ember, they'll be able to tell you xD Two days ago I was having the biggest freak out of my entire life, hitting rock bottom, and I couldn't see a way up. At all. And now I'm soaring. Part of me wonders if that's normal, to swing like that, but the other part is like "WOO PARTY!". I figure I'll enjoy it while I can, and you should too There are some seriously epic people here, and when you're in your down swings, we'll all be here for you ^^ As for the bisexual thing, again, we're all here for you, and we've all been through or are going through what you are. I'm currently in the process so I don't have any genius insights for you, but lots of other people do!
Thanks for the feedback. I do watch Glee with my wife but not the other shows. At work I joined our Pride network and my mentor is gay. So the influances are there, its more that I will at some point barate myself for thoughts or if I look at a guy and start to think hes cute, I stop and look the other way. Self esteem could be an issue. Also I have tried the Bi porn wacking and its not a problem until I'm done sometimes.
