Might need to come out again, but not in the way one might expect

So I'm still not sure of this, and as such, I have only told my closest friend as I know I can trust her with anything, but I think I might actually be straight. I've thought this before, just as I've thought I was gay before, but this somehow seems more definitive. I know I'm sexually attracted to females, and I know I want a heterosexual relationship. With guys? It's honestly difficult to tell. That might sound dumb, but that's how it is.

I'm just concerned that I've been forcing myself to believe I'm bisexual, because I've come out as that, and to think otherwise would just be making things difficult. I've never had a serious crush on a guy (whereas I most certainly have on a girl) and I never watch gay porn. I can't really imagine being in a relationship with a guy. However, I've kissed 3 guys, and I did enjoy them. They didn't feel unnatural or anything, but the idea of taking it further just didn't appeal to me. One of those guys made it clear to me he really likes me, and wants to go out with me, and to be honest? It kind of freaked me out.

Now, I've never had any homophobic inclinations. I don't give a shit what anyone's sexual orientation is, it doesn't affect my relationship with them for one second. In fact, I feel extremely strongly about gay rights. If someone is against homosexuality/bisexuality etc, I immediately see them as an antagonist and I find it difficult to be friends with them. I don't know if this makes any sense, but I think I had some innate desire to be bisexual, as if to make my points more valid when arguing or something? But then, I don't really think that's the case.

I've definitely felt attractions to men before, only superficial, but nonetheless. Of course,the teenage period is the most confusing, so maybe this whole thing was just a phase and I'm straight after all. Trouble is, everyone thinks I'm bi, and this translates into many people thinking I'm gay due to 1) chinese whispers syndrome and 2) ignorant bigots who think bi = gay or bisexuality doesn't exists or whatever.

Anyway, I'm worrieed if I "come out" as straight that people will think I just did the whole bisexual thing for attention. Honestly, I did not. Why would I want to be shunned by my male peers? Why would I want girls to think of me as gay and therefore have no interest in a relationship with me?

No, it was not for attention. I have had thoughts about guys in that way, and I don't think I'm 100% straight (who is?) but I dunno... I'm just not sure I would ever want a relationship with a guy or indeed want to have sex with a guy. It's still cloudy, but yeah.

Anybody else have any similar experiences?

 

Ahh, that thread was actually created months ago, but it was revived a couple of days ago by another user for some reason. I did go through that phase, but I'm 100% I'm sexually attracted to girls now, especially after losing my virginity to a girl and, despite later repercussions, it was a successful experience.

The thing is, I don't really want to be straight. Not that I actively am against the idea, I'm just not that bothered what my orientation is, I'd just like to definitively know what I am.

I certainly won't be coming out again until I know for sure.

Is my situation something that happens often? You hear of people who use bisexuality as a stepping stone to homosexuality, then there are actual bisexuals, but what about people who think they're bi before realizing they're actually straight? Does this happen? I know there are people who do it merely for attention but attention has never been something on my mind.