Okay, so I only realized a few weeks ago that I am attracted to guys. I am still in the realization/acceptance process, and it is going smoothly. The only problem is my dad. He is always saying how I will have a girlfriend or get married someday, and I can't help but think to myself, Dad, you only know half of the story. Except I am starting to think that it is not only half of the story. Since my coming out to myself, I have felt a growing attraction for guys, and a lessening attraction for girls. I am beginning to think that I am gay, not bi. :help: I guess I just need a place to vent.
Well im not bi so i dont know what it feels like to like both guys and girls but all i can really say is that in time you will really learn what you like be it guys only girls only or both
Do you know if your dad is homo/LGBT-phobic at all? Do you think he means what he says maliciously, or in a jesting "oh, you're a teenager, you'll meet someone someday" kind of way?
It's pretty normal to develop a stronger attraction for the same sex after you start feeling more comfortable with the idea of same sex attraction. You kind of begin to let yourself explore the notion of being gay and allow yourself to check out the same sex a bit more. I think early on before we fully admit to ourselves that we are gay, we try to hang on to what little attraction we think we might have for the opposite sex. If you are finding that you enjoy the same sex a lot more than what you thought, then that's perfectly fine and normal.
This is what I'm finding on a continual basis. I'm expanding my scope of what I find hot and sexy in the gay world, even though I'm pretty much still a virgin and stuff. Just because I'm feeling more and more comfortable in my own shoes, and expanding my horizons when I watch porn. :icon_wink:eusa_danc Then I occasionally see guys in public who might be in their 30's, and I inadvertently might think of them in erotic terms. This wasn't the case AT ALL when I was a closeted college kid who thought I was attracted solely to the 18-21 year old twinks.
I've asked some friends and close relatives, most of them say 'bisexuality' does not exist or is just a phase. One day or another, they'll fit into their correct sexuality. Personally, when I heard this, I started to reconsider what I really was. I started to like this guy more than ever so I knew for sure, this guy was my very first real crush. But, when/if you come out to your dad one day, just keep in mind that no matter what he does, you're you. You're special.
