So I am at this party now and the guy I have a crush on is also here too. Because of my situation I really cannot come out. The problem is that my heart does not seem to understand that. Right now people are enjoying the party and I cannot because I get jealous every time i see him enjoying himself. I want him all to myself. Every time I am with him I feel so complete and content. I have never felt this way about another person before. I have surrendered to the fact that I can only be his friend, this kills me everyday. He always sends me texts and we end up chatting for hours about nothing and every time I tell myself that I am getting over him, he does something random that makes me fall in love with him all over again. I work with this guy and I know i can never face him and reveal the truth to him. I am a grown man who will soon be 25 years old. I do not need this. Someone please tell me, how can i get over this guy so i can move on with my life. I am tired of this. It is almost a year now and I am just fed up :tears: .
