(Rant/Advice) Self psychologist: I've been jealous and I never knew

I think it's pretty normal to be jealous of people when they seem like they "have it all together" in a way that you don't. It's also kinda embarrassing, at least for me, because jealousy isn't an emotion I like to admit to. For instance, I've been pretty jealous of my brother. I want his life, in some ways, or at least the things he has. And I find it really hard to accept that I don't have those same things, because then I have to admit that something is wrong-- or different-- about me.
I hear a lot that you shouldn't compare yourself with others, but frankly, I'm going to keep doing it anyway. Still working on the acceptance part, though.
What you're saying definitely makes sense to me.

 

Dude, unaccept that idea xD I too thought I would be "forever alone"(.jpg), came back from summer vacation this year for school (so back in september), within the first week I noticed a guy that I'd actually noticed a couple of times last year, but never really thought about. Well to make a long story short, within the last couple of months we've gone from complete strangers (never spoke a word to each other before this year), to very close friends, and I'm pretty sure we're going to be more than that very soon.

The fact is, these things just come up and smack you in the face. Sure, maybe it will take years, but it's just as likely to happen tommorow. You just can't predict it. I'm not normally a very outgoing person, and from a surface glance my crush wasn't really my type, but for whatever reason I just felt this spark when I met him It'll happen to you too, just be open for it!

 

Well the great thing about a crush on a guy, is that it's easy to make excuses to spend time with them without any awkwardness. As you get to know each other, you either figure out the other person's feelings, or you trust them enough to just tell them your feelings. The few times I've crushed on girls, it was so hard talking to them, and the one I did ask out felt like I had to move a boulder to do it. And all I did was ask her out for some lunch casually. Whereas with the guy I'm crushing on, it's almost effortless. Sure, the few times where I've stepped out the friendly interactions and dropped some major hints (i.e going in for a hug, etc) were hard, but I just felt a lot more comfortable doing them.

It's hard to explain, but when you meet the right person, it'll mostly come naturally.