okay , so every time i get injured or something , like twisting my ankle or something , i like it....i don't like when it heals ...in fact , i'm saddened by it... or like when i jammed my thumb ....i liked it , of course i was in pain but i don't like feeling no physical pain for some reason... i know i sound like i need help but...it's just me...i DO NOT like emotionally pain at all , but i always seem to drive for physical pain....i don't hurt myself on purpose but if it happens naturally , i like it that way... please don't tell me to see a counsler, they aren't going to help me...i personally just think it's what i personally like and another thing , i'm fascinated by blood. i really am like when i look at it...it's so... fascinating , it like grabs my attention , the color , the texture and the richness in it. i don't cut myself to see my own blood , but if i cut myself by accident , i'm so fascinated if i see the blood.
I must admit that makes sense to me - I'm also fascinated in this way. Or at least, I am until I realise it hurts lol. Then I become a big girl!
It does sound strange to admit, but I love blood. I work in veterinary medicine and am aiming to specialize in surgery, partially because of the level of blood involved. I get really excited when an especially gory case comes in. I take pictures when I get an extreme amount of blood on my scrubs, just because I find it so cool. I don't enjoy physical pain, but I am fairly used to it due to several medical conditions plus general klutziness (plus 4 tattoos). I do get quite proud of crazy bruises and scars though.
Ok it's great and all that you don't hurt yourself on purpose and u like blood or whatever, but, and I REALLY REALLY REALLY don't want to sound like one of those "get tharapy" chicks, self harm problems do start somewhere. I know ur probly thinking that I'm judging u or something but I really like blood and pain too, but my feeling turned into a massive self harm problem. I'm nit saying urs will turn into what mine did. Not at all. But try to just be aware that that exists. It's an addiction. Besides that I COMPLETELY agree with you. Ever realized that blood is cloudy, not clear. That's y fake movie blood looks so shitty
Its not strange.... Everyone has things that fascinate them and I'll admit I have a thing for blood as well. Its beautiful but dark, and yet is full of life at the same time... Hard to explain. Bottom line is, you're definitely not alone.<3
Honestly it sounds to me like you're just a bit of a masochist, but everybody has their kinks. It sounds as though you've got it under control so I wouldn't worry, just be careful to never let it become a crutch for relieving negative emotions, as that's where self harmers start. All the best.
Im kind of the same. I love it when i get a big gash up my arm or something! I had stitches in my neck once and i didnt want them to come out! and i love scars!! The bigger the better! I have no clue why?!
Im the same. I like blood and stuff. I hate the pain that goes along with cuts and bruises and stuff though. I had a black eye for several weeks from a violent game we played at scouts. I liked that but being female most people assumed it was domestic violence which it wasn't
My sister and I have this same fascination, and I've found there's actually a word for it (at least the closest I could find)--"gorn." Like "porn with gore," it's basically when you get your kicks (not necessarily sexually) from blood and wounds and all that. We have the same reaction to blood and horror as our other female friends do to their favorite boy bands or dramas.
