so lately, a lot of people have found out about me being bi. A guy messed around with told his friend. That friend told her friend. Her friend told my ex-girlfriend. My ex-girlfriend told her friend and asked my ex boyfriend about it, and he told her the truth, so she took that info and probably told more people, and I told this girl Kristein yesterday cuz she asked me what was on my mind cuz I looked sad, and I told her "Oh, nothing. Just, the fact that I'm bi is being brought up to me a lot" and she responded "Wha- :eek: Oh. Aw, you ok? " AND, my ex boyfriends EX boyfriend knows, HIS brother knows, HIS girlfriend knows, HIS GIRLFRIENDS BEST FRIEND KNOWS! And the funny thing is....I don't even care anymore. If this was back in like...8th grade, I'd probably kill myself, and that's honestly from my heart, coming out was one of my biggest fears ever. Now, I don't care. At all. Especially after coming out to my family, and being on this site... But then. Tonight. This conversation went on with my really good friend, and I didn't expect it AT ALL. BDLB1024 (7:20:22 PM): serious question Tajdude (7:20:27 PM): yeah BDLB1024 (7:20:29 PM): are you bisexual? Tajdude (7:20:33 PM): wow who said that BDLB1024 (7:21:05 PM): no one said that its just you and karl asked me once and i was wondering why you guys would ask me that and i've asked karl if he was and he said no now im asking you Tajdude (7:21:36 PM): no Tajdude (7:21:40 PM): when did we ask you that? BDLB1024 (7:21:55 PM): you and karl thought i was bisexual and then karl asked me once Tajdude (7:22:03 PM): i was kidding BDLB1024 (7:22:24 PM): okay well if you are and your like embarassed or something i am not going to hate you or some shit Tajdude (7:22:40 PM): then i am Tajdude (7:22:42 PM): there ya go Tajdude (7:23:04 PM): don't really got much else to say BDLB1024 (7:23:26 PM): okay i wasnt joking around or trying to make you feel like shit or something Tajdude (7:23:37 PM): no, it's fine. Tajdude (7:23:55 PM): i don't want you to feel like "ew, this assholes nasty" or nothin like that Tajdude (7:24:01 PM): but if you do Tajdude (7:24:02 PM): then Tajdude (7:24:03 PM): sorry Tajdude (7:24:09 PM): nothins really different BDLB1024 (7:24:17 PM): its just i could never see you like that though thats it Tajdude (7:24:32 PM): neither could i, really BDLB1024 (7:24:37 PM): cause you were always like so masculine and like i dont know how to explain it Tajdude (7:24:37 PM): but that's wasup BDLB1024 (7:24:42 PM): yeah Tajdude (7:24:46 PM): don't say shit billy Tajdude (7:24:47 PM): seriously Tajdude (7:25:01 PM): as someone i look at as a brother, i only told you cuz you wanted to know BDLB1024 (7:25:17 PM): yeah i promise i wont BDLB1024 (7:25:25 PM): how did you find out though? Tajdude (7:25:28 PM): uh Tajdude (7:25:28 PM): idk Tajdude (7:25:31 PM): i just know BDLB1024 (7:26:03 PM): oh BDLB1024 (7:27:30 PM): well i was talking to beau to like a month ago and he said you asked him the same thing so i was wondering then but i didnt want to say shit Tajdude (7:28:00 PM): i only asked him cuz i heard that he was BDLB1024 (7:28:12 PM): oh Tajdude (7:28:13 PM): and i really don't remember askin you BDLB1024 (7:28:24 PM): you and karl said about it last year to me BDLB1024 (7:28:29 PM): you guys thought maybe i was bi Tajdude (7:28:37 PM): idk why i'd think that Tajdude (7:28:40 PM): so sorry BDLB1024 (7:28:57 PM): we good friends, did you not want to tell me cause you thought i would not be your friend? Tajdude (7:29:30 PM): yeah, i didn't wanna say shit to you cuz i didn't think you'd wanna even look at me anymore, i thought you'd be disgusted Tajdude (7:29:52 PM): and that'd suck, cuz you really are like a brother to me Tajdude (7:29:55 PM): and always have been Tajdude (7:30:00 PM): so i wasn't tryna lose that BDLB1024 (7:30:56 PM): yeah.... like when you admitted it was kind of shocking but i mean your nto a different person or nothing BDLB1024 (7:31:02 PM): does Karl know? Tajdude (7:31:21 PM): yeah Karls always known BDLB1024 (7:31:34 PM): when did you know? BDLB1024 (7:31:44 PM): cause like i never would have figured out BDLB1024 (7:31:47 PM): never BDLB1024 (7:34:01 PM): would you lie to me at first? though like you hate liars BDLB1024 (7:34:13 PM): why"d instead of would Tajdude (7:34:16 PM): well shit, people lie Tajdude (7:34:23 PM): that's the only thing i've ever lied about in my life Tajdude (7:34:25 PM): that i can remember BDLB1024 (7:35:34 PM): well im out to go and play xbox i wont bring that shit up anymore Tajdude (7:35:49 PM): aight then BDLB1024 (7:36:01 PM): peace Tajdude (7:36:03 PM): peace BDLB1024 signed off at 7:36:11 PM. Are you guys proud of me? This is weird for me. It really is. Did anybody else come out as slowly but comfortably as me? And was it good at first, but then there was a time when you almost regretted it? Because I don't feel NEARLY as bad as I thought I would. I actually feel good. And I like this feeling a lot. Will it stay?
Wow, I like the way you talk, haha. Honestly I think everyone goes through that point. It's the whole feeling that you want to come out, but you couldn't bring yourself to really say it. Actually, I'm going through that right now for the first time. I think the feeling will pass, but only with time. Well of course you feel good though. I mean, it's like a weights been lifted basically. It passes with time, but all feelings do. Luckily pain is included in the feelings that pass as time goes by. So good luck coming out! Because whether or not it's really good or really bad, it's gonna pass. Like a haircut. ;x Good luck! <3
By the end of the year, it should be just a formality! It seems that you haven't had anything too negative so far...are you more confident about it now?
i think coming out always feels wierd. it's very wierd. but if you feel good about it atm, great! try and hold onto that feeling
UPDATE: There's so many more people that know, that I don't even care anymore, I'm basically out, cuz of my cunt of an ex girlfriend, who keeps tryna act like she's cool with me. Bitch. -_-
