Hello. I'm an 18 year old male and I have been very confused about my sexuality for about 3/4 years (maybe 5). When I think about my attractions, there are times when I am attracted to girls, times when attracted to guys and sometimes both. I hardly get crushes, but I do seem to find men rather physically attractive at timnes. I watch gay porn quite a bit at the moment and even have cyber sex (masturbating on cam with each other). Although there are times when I don't find all this attractive. I'm a virgin and often the thought of having sex with a male is good, but sometimes not. I normally masturbate to men too, though I occasionally do it to women too and occasionally watch straight porn. Though thinking about the noises the women make when having straight sex kind of makes me sick inside, I do sometimes find it kind of attractive to listen to sometimes; but often/sometimes I just find it gross. I don't often like girl on girl/single girl porn though as much as straight/gay porn. I once had a strange dream. I dreamt that a fit human guy was transferred to this world into my room from another planet in space (weird I know, tis a dream anyway; but it was about love and not sex). I remember in the dream where I was being carried by one of my Uni flatmates (called Will) and that guy who was transferred to my room from the planet and getting attracted to both of them. One of flatmates asked me if I was anyone I liked? I admitted both attractions. The flatmate I told said that Will and I would obviously never happen as he is straight and has a girlfriend; but said that the human guy transferred from space and I have a big chance. The dream ended there after a bit I don't remember as my alarm clock went off. I then just weeped for a few minutes feeling that dream and what could of happened throughout the dream. With emotional attractions, it can kind of just be based on mannerisms and personality really which I get a bit more from a female than a male. Though I don't really have that many male friends that I hang round with a lot. I also don't know if I'm making myself gay/bi sometimes, hence some of what I wrote above. Any help anyone?
Sounds fairly like my experiences before I concluded I was bi. I've had dreams about being intimate with other guys, etc (and thinking fondly on it after waking). even while having a girlfriend and being happy with her. It was only because I had an incomplete idea of what bisexual really is, thinking it was equal and static attraction to both sexes. It isn't necessarily that. I like guys one day and girls the next it seems, and sometimes I like both. There are even more complexities to it beyond the scope of my post here too. It's truly a gift as I see it. You should feel lucky you are attracted to both; it allows you to see beauty and potential love partners everywhere.
Yeah I thinking that I could be bi. Though I haven't had the inexperience in person (like face-to-face) so it can be quite hard to really know.
Dreams don't tell much lol. I have had sex dreams with random dude-looking figures (maybe because I watched porn too much). but I also have had dreams that I thought I woke up and brushed my teeth, and dreams that I thought I have pokemon, and dreams that I am in some dark world falling off a tall tower lol. And dreams that sounds like movie idea but I forget.... I am guessing you could be at least bi lol.
Not much, but I think they do tell some things. I didn't have dreams about kissing/feeling up guys until after I was unquestionably bisexual, and then maybe swinging more on the gay side. Funny enough, I even felt in the dreams like "Freaking finally, I'm actually doing it, and he's going for it!" I was so disappointed when I woke up that it wasn't real. X.X
Another thing. At the moment I feel more attracted to girls (I think). Though when I look at pictures of guys (at the moment), all I feel is my heart beating with a slight ache. Is that me still coming to terms with the fact I could truly be gay or bi (most likely bi)?
