at 14 and 16 i had several same sex experimentations all witht he same guy my cousin at first iwasnt intrested it was honestly a way of sexual relief because it was thrilling and no girls would do that with me so i pretended he was a girl. porn manipulated me heavily from the age of 10. at 16 i was bicurious after attempts to suck myself when he showed me his penis i thought what the hell and i done it a few times. within a few months now i have also dated girls and been in love in my opinion. and had sexual relationships. the most thrilling thing about oral sex with a guy was that it was wrong and taboo and i would just do it to tell girls about it because for some reason they found it hot or thrilling and that gave me a rush. i would be ok with bisexuality but thats all i can ever do with a guy nothing more. since my girlfriend broke up with me hocd started and now i am at a point where i dont know what i am all i know is i dont wish to be with a guy yet images of naked girls no longer do it for me and when i see neaked guys im just analysing every aspect ot see if i like it. i no longer want to perform anything on a guy but how comes i have several times in the past. what am i. thank you for reading
It sounds like you enjoyed yourself with a guy but it's not really your thing. You could be a little like me. I'm sexually attracted to people of both sexes, but am only generally romantically interested in girls. Does that sound like you? Are you still sexually attracted to girls? Despite not wanting to do anything with a guy, do you think you would enjoy it if you did? As for relationships: Do you want relationships with women? Could you at all imagine yourself in a relationship with a man? Answer those questions if you can. If you can't yet, then just be patient, you can't rush it and it will come with time.
I'm 23 and had a few same sex encounters myself. I am currently with a girl and have been together almost 2 years. I have hocd also, I'm afraid my love isnt good enough sometimes, or maybe ill just up and fall in love woth a guy (highly doubt it). Like the other guy, I only see myself with my girl and honestly do not want to mess with guys anymore. I mean, was ok but its nothing like the emotional conection you get with being with someone you love/loves you back. I think your straight man or just open to other stuff.
Thank you very much you're the only one who understands em on here and I have a history of severe OCD
