I realized that all my friends (guys) have experimented with my best friend(guy). Over the past few months everyone have said subtle things that they think I'm gay. But I just always thought they didn't understand I'm not necessarily an interpersonal people person. I've never really had friends until a few years ago, so I may just be late on the "bromance" teen experimenting thing. I've never even thought about being gay until the last few months. So was I always gay and I hang out with this guy because I'm gay and realizing it. I never "looked" at him this way until i found out his sexuality. I'm very confused been not being able to sleep. I did the gay "porn test" and didn't get aroused but I don't immediately get aroused by regular porn either. Should I just experiment to see if I'm gay? I was late to the game on losing my virginity about 16. So am I just over analyzing myself, or could I perhaps be a really repressed gay guy. Any advice is welcome and very appreciated as I can't sleep and can't seem to find any other people with my situation on these forums.
I've always liked girls, been with many. Had my fair share of gfs/hook ups. But still ppl say subtle things that they think I'm gay. I feel like everyone knows something I don't. I dont check guys out, I mean I can understand the beauty of any person, but I'm not sexually attracted to them like I am a girl, its just now i think every guy i meet thinks im gay. I've visited these forums, I don't want to be that 40 year old guy that comes out late. I want to know now.
just my opinion, but nothing you've said thus far makes me think you're gay. bisexual if anything, but i think you may be reading too much into people's comments and maybe giving too much credit to people's supposed 6th sense/ "gaydar". but then again, it's a bit early to say. "I don't want to be that 40 year old guy that comes out late"...? how old are you again?? i really don't see the rush, but then again i've only just figured myself out at 27yo. give yourself time and just tune in to yourself, not anyone else.
I really think your worrying about nothing. There's no point experimenting just to prove something. If you genuinely arn't intrested in guys then I see no point in trying to "test" yourself. I also think you should not let what other people say affect your own view of yourself. Just coz all your friends have "had a dabble" with your best friend and you haven't doesn't mean there's something up.
