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i think im gay

Discussion in 'Coming Out Advice' started by johnjorgell, Dec 23, 2012.

  1. johnjorgell

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    i used to only watch straight and lesbian porn now it doesnt work i get happy as in emotions but dont get an erection but when i watch gay porn i get an erection bu feel depressed and anxious inside. i am gay arent i
     
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    Getting hard watching gay porn doesn't mean much. Have you found yourself checking out other guys in public, or thinking about them at other times? If not, and you still want a relationship with a girl, it just means you like gay porn. I'd consider it unusual, but not totally whacked out.
     
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    Couldn't tell based on just that, but it sounds like you could be gay, or bi. Without more details it's really hard to tell.

    How old are you? When you see a good looking guy, do you get that feeling inside of "my, he looks good, I'd like to see more!"? Or are you basing this just on porn viewing (which is pretty reliable, I think - but others might have other opinions).

    No need to feel depressed and anxious - it's perfectly normal!
     
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    I have dreams and crushes on girls but porn doesn't give me erections just gay porn
     
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    I've seen some divide attraction into "sexual" and "romantic". It sounds like you are homosexual and heteroromantic to me. It sounds like a most unfortunate combo. :frowning2:
     
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    That's how I used to think, then I accepted the fact that I'm gay and I've been relatively happy since I came to terms with my sexuality... Big weight off my shoulders when I did.
     
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    but when it comes to reality i love to perform sexually with girls its just the porn honestly, and besides i have tried coming to terms with my sexuality it doesnt happen
     
  8. It sounds like you just answered your own questions. You like girls, but perhaps you're bi-curious. Porn doesn't mean anything.
     
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    im basing my sexuality purely on porn
     
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    I know people are saying porn doesn't indicate sexuality, but porn was actually the first real sign that scared me. I focused on the man, tried to look at the woman and it didn't work.
     
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    but ive been watching porn since 11 and it was working then

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    and i really am intrester i feel emotionally aroused but no erection
     
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    Another thing to remember is that we are raised to fall for the opposite sex, sexually and emotionally. It will take much more emotional comfortable and acceptance in order for you to really feel anything outside of physical arousal for another man. If you feel depressed and anxious about your attraction to men, it is unlikely that it will be able to turn into anything more. (Even if it should)

    However, that does not mean that it is reasonable to go on in life ignoring these feelings because you will never be happy until you are being completely honesty and content with yourself.
     
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    Tbh I don't think im gay because im happier being in denial in my life and im happier with a girl if it means im homophobic or anything or in denial so be it im happier than pressuring myself into being gay and acting as if il be happier.

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    I appreciate all of your replies and you mean well but your all constantly talking about being gay you don't think about any other possibility because you're trying to make coming out easier for me. But all I do is cry at the possibility I can't be with a woman like Kate beckinsale
     
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    You'll think that now. When I was a little younger, I used to think I'd be happier if I didn't tell anybody any denied it. Then you realise, you're going to be in a relationship that is based on nothing but lies (no sexual or emotional connection), you're going to eventually break a girls heart and finally you will die without truly knowing what it feels like to really love.

    In a couple of years you'll know living in denial is a terrible idea. Nobody can force anyone to be gay, you either are or you aren't. There's no changing that.
     
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    The thing is im willing to tell every one in the world im gay I just do t believe it I will never ever see myself emotionally attached to a guy and believe me I've tried
     
  16. You sound like a heteroromantic homosexual to me.