For the past 3 years I have been open as gay, and before that I had been closeted gay for 2 years. I had never really felt any emotional attraction to a girl. But then I met her. I had known her for years but had never really hung out with her. I started to hang out with her more and I realized that... she was perfect. I mean that feeling when you know someone is the one for you, we have similar interests, we get along really well, shes funny and we are always laughing together. I just don't understand, why did I have to be this messed up? Why couldn't I of been born a way and know it, why do I have to be so weird... I have talked to her about it and we've flirted and kissed but I don't know what to do about being openly gay. Will everyone think I'm some freak? Will I lose a lot of friends?
