about to snap

well i actually didn't want to cut again....but today i scratched my wrists with my pencil. im so sorry your going through this , try and not do it again but honestly a lot of people are going to say that and it made it harder for me not to do it again. just try and breathe...im right here if you need , i know i can't relate ...at all...but im still here. we all are.
i hope you don't snap , again were here for you (*hug*)

 

your welcome. you can write on my wall if you'd like or anyone who answers which i know they will. its not easy to hold back cutting so if you do ...don't blame yourself. your human....some people just can't always hold it back like some others. if you do cut some more , just know you did try and realize that its enough

 

i cried over someone i feel in love with online. she hurt me pretty bad and i know i should cry over someone who hurt me. you have every right to cry. you cry , its way better than cutting

i know your tried of fighting , believe me ...i wanted to overdose not to long ago , and i was on the verge of it...i had the bottle opened and a glass of water out. nobody knew anything was wrong...but i couldn't do it. my mom has been dead for 4 years now and i suffered from being an a abusive home. she died from accidental overdose although i think it was suicide. i couldn't do it because i didn't want to let my mom down. i knew she would want me to live so here i am barely hanging on again

just cry and talk to people , do your best not give up , i'll be here making sure i reply (*hug*)

okay thats good.

 

i'll talk to you. i never talked to you before...but i'll talk.
everyone views me as this strong, funny , always happy person but little did they know i have lived a fucked up life.
im on the same boat with that. i hate when people say im strong because its not true. im weaker than wet paper. i can be tore in 2 easily

 

my mom was the reason i put the pulls down but if i hadn't thought about her , i would have , i swear i would have though and you are very welcome.

i hope things will get better. you can vent to me if you want....i vent all the time and i like listening to people other than myself so

 

Hey I just wanted to say that I'm here for you too if you want to talk. I have PTSD from some childhood abuse. I haven't cut in years, but that's how I used to cut. I can totally relate to having bad dreams and wanting to cut. Most of my friends don't even know I have PTSD because it's not as obvious as it once was. However, anyone that has ever slept in the same room as me knows because I scream in my sleep. Most of the time when I wake up I can shake off the dreams, but sometimes I want to cut. I usually take a red pen and mark myself where I used to cut. It sounds stupid, but it helped me a lot. Sometimes I have to sit on my hands until the urge goes away. Anyways, I'm here for you if you need to talk (*hug*)

 

i don't get flashbacks like you and i am sorry you do but whenever something happens that's related to what happened when i was kid , i'll remember and start freaking out

 

Good night

 

Oh my dear, I experience the same flashes of my past and I know just how scary they can be, how the past just never seems to disappear. However, remember what you have done - you are here, you are stronger than anyone really. And your not pathetic! Its okay to cry sometimes, but if anyone, YOU can stand back up and become the strong person you have been! Continue taking care of yourself - eat as you do, keep your room clean (or messy if it usually is), take a bath. But remember this, you are amazing - you really are. Forces will always try to take down the tallest and strongest, but you can overcome that and build yourself back up. Your life has possibility, opportunity, and hope - the past is gone. Show the world just how strong you are.

 

That's great! I'm glad. And your very welcome. Glad to help.

 

Thats so cool! Congratulations! and Continue to stay strong!