Ahhh! I'm sorry you are feeling bad! You can be happy. You live in sunny California. That's a plus when it's so cold outside. Why are you in denial? Sometimes it just takes a little time to come to terms with who you are. But don't let it get you down. It will get better. There are always lows and highs in life, just thrive on the highs and try to make them happen more often.
