All right here it goes. Im your average masc athletic jock. I grew up in a nice normal family. in school i was a geek though never dated and actually have never dated. i was always interested in girls but because of low self esteem i never made a move. in my teen yrs i started having gay thoughts and they bothered me. I became obsessed with them. i didnt like those thoughts and i felt as if i could shut them out. they werent pleasurable to me at the time. i was diagnosed with ocd and eventually those thoughts subsided. It was kind of weird though because even though i wanted to date women i never had that uncontrollable drive. I never made any huge attempt like the other guys did. i just figured having a gf wasnt in the cards for me and i stopped trying. When i went to college i changed my body completely became muscular and good looking but still i never had that urge to date. A few yrs ago out of the blue i started jacking off to gay porn. i couldnt get enough. i liked it better than straight porn after a while. i Found a jo buddy on craigslist and began experimenting w him. We did everything except for anal. Ive def thought about it but i feel very guilty. now im totally confused i like women but i like guys too maybe more. My question is how do i get over this guilt and know that just because im bi or guy it doesnt compromise my masculinity at all.
Hey! And welcome! You bring up a lot of great points. First, it's normal for people to experiment. But for you, you could easily be bi. You probably just don't have a lot of connectivity with gays. Because honestly - some of the most manly guys are gay. Some of the most sissy, pathetic guys are straight. Your masculinity has nothing to do with your sexuality. A lot of people think it does? It's just a stereotype. You're totally the kind of guy I like. I think it's really manly to just be open and be a guy. You know?
I agree with photoguy93 you don't have to fit into the stereotypes to be gay or in your case possibly bi, it just means that you're attracted to the same gender or both genders but maybe leaning more towards one gender if you're bi, Being masculine is just a part of who you are as well but means nothing when it comes to sexuality.
thanks thats why im here to learn i used to be very closed minded on this subject , but yeah youre right its just a stereotype that people use to make things easier to classify. im glad i found this site hopefully i can sort stuff out. Yeah def leaning more towards bi for me i think. So maybe i should start dating a few guys and women and see how it turns out
