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my heart races

Discussion in 'Coming Out Advice' started by MerBear, Jan 19, 2013.

  1. MerBear

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    My Heart Races....

    okay so i'm trying to get over an ex right and please don't get mad at me for this , im slowly learning.

    i was checking out her blog because i like the poem she writes so anyways , i went on her blog and saw she posted something on gay marriage and as soon as i saw she posted something new , my heart sped up and just was racing like crazy and it happened just a a few minutes ago , i was going on my facebook to see if i could delete the messages between us since we used to be facebook friend and i saw her profile picture changed and once again , my heart just immediately sped up and was pounding.

    i decided not to go on her blog anymore and not to check her facebook because she's obviously is not coming back and even though i like the poems she writes , i'm guessing its not going to help me move on

    but my heart always races when i see something new , whether its something she posted on her blog or a new picture....my heart races and i was just wondering if anyone could tell me why?
     
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    I know you're still trying to get over her....it's difficult. It'll probably take some more time. And in my experience, you never get over someone completely that you truly cared about. (*hug*)
     
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    yeah. thank you :slight_smile:
    im letting time guide me
     
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    i apologize if any of this was confusing by the way
     
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    why would it be confusing?

    I've been in your shoes.....it's not easy getting over someone....doesn't really matter if it was just online or not....I know what you're going through

    it would be easier if you could just flip a switch and shut off your emotions (god I wish it was that easy) but unfortunately it's just not that easy
     
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    i don't know , a lot of people get confused when i talk about something
    and thank you so much....if i ever told people about me and her , they would never listen to me....never but im glad people on here will listen and understand
     
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    A lot of people don't understand about online relationships....unless they've been in one. You get just as attached to people whether it's online or not. And it's doesn't even matter if it's a romantic relationship or just a friendship. I have friends on facebook that I met through another forum and they've been just as good of friends as anyone in real life. And we've all been friends for like seven years now. Just because it's online, doesn't make any less 'real'. A lot of people don't get that.

    There's so many people here on EC....and we have all had different experiences in life so it's easier to find someone on here who has been in the same situation. I love it here at EC!!!

    (I've rambled long enough LOL!!!)
     
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    no. your good and i love it here on EC too.
     
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    Thank you!!!

    I tend to ramble sometimes...especially if I'm tired and if I'm really tired sometimes it just sounds like total nonsense and when I read it the next day I'm like 'wtf did I write?' lol
     
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    your welcome. im the same way. when im tired , i write stupid emotional shit and then the next day i wake up and say "why the fuck did i say that?"

    at night...it seems my brain releases a alcohol chemical
     
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    I can understand how you feel, we've all been through it before. I'm babysitting for the girl I'm still slightly in love with. I thought it would be awkward seeing her again, but things have been cool. I'd rather have her as a friend than nothing at all.

    It's helping me with the healing process as crazy as it sounds. I think it's okay to check out her poems, and it's going to take time to get over her. Perhaps you should stop trying...

    Lmao @inthedark4eva...
     
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    stop trying what?
     
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    I think pinklov3ly means to 'stop trying to get over your ex'
     
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    Stop trying to get over her, that's what I did and the girl I love came back into my life. I allowed myself to feel the pain, the loss of not having her in my life. I wrote about her in my journal, which also helped.
     
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    but i mean...scarlett wont come back. she practically ignored me...and i look back now see she never cared about me. everything was a game to her.
    i'll try and take your advicd
     
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    I'm sorry to hear that; so, she was never really into girls period?
     
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    no she is into girls but she just wasn't into me. she never liked me , she just played with my emotions
     
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    i knew explaining was going to become complicated
     
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    I met someone on another forum who does the exact same thing.
     
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    yeah , i didn't realize she was played me on purpose until now.
    she's a little rich girl too