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Battling myself? Advice? Thoughts?

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  1. CandyDiamonds

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    never mind
     
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    Please elaborate, I can't help you, if you don't express your feelings. I know too well, what you're battling...
     
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    We are here to help, so please elaborate. It's safe here, everyone is so nice . so share so we can help when u are ready .
     
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    Hey I agree with pinklov3ly, tell us what you are struggling with we might be able to help. If you dont want people to know its you posting then there is an anonymous section, but dont be afraid, everyone here is welcoming and friendly.
     
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    i see your questioning , is that what your struggling with? there are lovely people here who can help and might been through similar experiences
     
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    I suppose that it is me questioning my sexuality.
    I’ve always considered myself straight, but I have never really been attracted to men at all, I just thought that’s how it was.
    I’ve always been attracted to women and thought that this was normal, in fact, I feel like everyone is attracted to them and that’s just how it is.
    I’ve never have sex with a women, or been in a relationship with one. But I do remember all through high school and parts of college whenever me and some friends would get “too drunk” or play truth or dare, or spin the bottle, or whatever, I absolutely loved making out with girls and loved the excuse to get to do so.
    I have been in relationship with guys, but I don’t think that I ever really enjoyed it. My most serious relationship lasted a year but we ended up breaking up because me and him were more like best friends than lovers.

    I’m just really confused right now, I’m pregnant also, so could it just be hormones playing tricks on me?

    uh. I just don't really know. :confused:
     
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    i don't think hormones could be a part of this. i think you could be lesbian because if your attracted to women and not men than i think it might be so.
     
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    I agree.with flyalone45 . It sounds like ur gay , as u say u are attracted to women and not men
     
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    And if I am.

    what do i do?
    I'm just not understanding.


    I don't know.
    Is that a weird thing to ask?
     
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    what exactly do you mean what do i do? well first ...you have to acknowledge your attractions , don't deny like i am.
     
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    It's okay, and no, it's not because you're pregnant. Although, my feelings for women became even stronger after I had my first son. It was like something had awakened my deep repressed feelings. How far along are you in your pregnancy? If you don't mind me asking...
     
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    I don't even know what I mean.

    ---------- Post added 21st Jan 2013 at 03:49 PM ----------

    I will be 16 weeks tomorrow.

    and it seems like my feelings for women became stronger recently, or maybe I've just noticed it more lately.
     
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    Oh, yes, pregnancy can cause you to become emotional and vulnerable. If you're attracted to women then please do not deny how you feel. I did, tried the whole family thing, which left me even more confused. I was going against my natural attraction for women; it's okay to be gay. Even though it took me forever to accept it, but now, things are good. And congrats! I love babies :slight_smile:
     
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    I love babies too! :slight_smile:

    but how do you accept something that was repressed or avoided for 20 years.
    it seems almost impossible to be at peace with anything right now.
     
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    I guess, It'll take time for me to accept it completely and I can understand that.

    So my next question,
    how do i get others to accept it?
    Like my friends? My family?

    Should I just worry about that later?
    my friends are very judgmental people.
    and my parents (my father at least) are homophobic.
     
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    i think you should take it one at a time.

    first let yourself accept then once your comfortable and confident enough , you can come out to other but only do it when your ready and if you need any help in the future on accepting or coming out or any other problems we are here to help. :slight_smile:
     
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    I almost do think in the couple weeks of questioning myself, I have come to (sort of) accept it already. (but not really)

    I guess, I just wanted to hear someone agree with me, or maybe even tell me I was wrong. Or maybe just have someone to really talk to about it, I don't even know.

    I posted a similar question on a pregnancy forum that I'm a member of, and their answers were completely different. Saying I would go back to "normal" once my hormones are back to normal too.
     
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    yeah , it was like that with me on yahoo answers on the LGBT forum , i though i was going to get good answer but instead , i got a bunch of assholes so then i found this site and couldn't be happier :grin:

    and whats normal anyways? haha
     
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    Wow, well I'm so glad that you found this site! Your feelings have been pretty consistent, I don't think they're going to change anytime soon. You obviously have an enduring emotional, sexual etc attraction towards women. Are you currently in a relationship?
     
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