i feel stupid :(

You'll be fine, though you said some of your friends will be graduating early, i've had other friends in america who have been in the same situation. it was difficult for them but their fine now. I have problems with anxiety and panic attacks that sometimes make me bad for days.
sometimes it pays to just sit down with a cup of tea (or a favorite drink) and take some deep breaths. i almost didnt get into college because i failed all but one of my sciences and all of my maths

 

Honey, You aren't stupid. Oh well you have a 1.550 grade point average. What matters is that you do the things you need to do to arrive at that bright future anyway. There is nothing wrong with a community college. You just need to focus on the what is ahead. Look toward the bright side. Is there a career you would like to have?
There is nothing to be done about feelings we all have them. The question is do you think you are stupid? I certainly don't think so. I see you as a girl with a lot of potential that you have yet to tap. Hang in there and don't get so down on yourself.
These feelings will give you the drive and energy to accomplish much. Hugs

 

Just so you know, employers don't care about GPA. They hardly even care about degrees in some cases. They care about RESULTS. What can you do for them? They like hearing about community service, special awards, and in creative industries, they want to see examples of your work. The degree is more for your own betterment as a person than as an employment force multiplier.

Furthermore, there's nothing wrong with community college. The one I go to has since changed their name to "State College" because they offer bachelor's degrees, but it's still basically a community college, and it's helped me out tons. Once you get an associate's degree there, any 4-year university automatically accepts you, if I remember correctly. You're still fairly young, so as long as you keep pushing, you'll be fine. Oh, and ask for help if you can't get something. Sincerely wanting to know things really is half the battle of learning.

 

Don't get so down on yourself. You will get a job and you will do fine in a community college. A four year college is nice but is no guarantee of a bright future. What creates a bright future is a girl/woman who looks ahead and grabs hold of life and just does it. I know a writer who followed her dream in her youth. She was not great in school but she had a dream of becoming an author. She is pretty much self taught as she let school at 17 with no high school diploma. She just finished her twelfth book. (!) So it can be done. It is the drive and determination that makes the future. You can do it sweetie

 

Oh my goodness...don't be so hard on yourself, hun! Here... (*hug*) just take it easy and know that you tried your best!! That's what counts. And hey...if you're passing and you're still able to be graduating early, then you're fine! look at the bright side! High school isn't much fun and it's just a tough time in life. You'll be happy to be out of there and start something new! I graduated early and went to community college too! Nothing wrong with it

 

whatever happens, i believe you can do it and wish you the best of luck

 

Your dad may not be spot on, on this one. I never had an employer ask my GPA. What they are looking for is a person that can do a job and do it well. Yes you need to focus now and work hard.
You can get into a community college and find your career. What career would you like honey?

 

Once you've done two years at a community college, which is standard, 4-year schools won't care about your high school transcripts. I work for my college's admissions office and we never look at high school transcripts when considering transfer students. If you earn good grades at your community college and, more importantly, get good letters of recommendation from a few professors, you'll be fine.

While we're on the subject, get to know your profs if you can. Building a relationship with your professors makes it much easier for them to hook you up with cool opportunities.

 

Don't stress over gpas. Honestly, they are not going to mean anything in the real world. There are a lot of different types of smart. Your gpa really only reflects how book smart you are in the traditional sense of the word. Many brilliant people practically flunked out of school because they didn't fit the traditional idea of intelligence. As far as not understanding math, you may just have gotten help from people who don't know how to explain it in a way that makes sense to you. I used to tutor when I was in high school and many people don't realize that the explanation that works for one person won't work for another. Anyhow, don't give up hope. I'm sure you aren't stupid and the fact that you care about this kind of stuff shows that you want to succeed and are willing to work to do that. So the situation isn't hopeless. Work hard when you get to community college, don't be afraid to ask for help and never be ashamed that you don't understand something. Remember that everyone's brains work differently so keep you're head up and you'll be fine.

 

Don't beat yourself up over your GPA...you've had a LOT to deal with the last few years. Losing your mom makes things especially difficult...that takes years to deal with. Add the issue of trying to figure out your sexuality and the whole business with Scarlett....well...you get my point.

Just try your best and don't worry about your dad...as long as you know you're doing your best. (*hug*)

 

You take courses in the necessary classes at the community college. Then proceed with the career. It can be a very good job and rewarding.