Hello all! Again lol. First and foremost, thank y'all!!! Really, I love and appreciate all of y'all. I hate to say this and do this but for a time being, I'll be off this site. How do I say this, but, um... I went and saw a sex therapist the other day and well, I've been diagnosed with a rare form of sexual OCD. Now before anyone jumps me for posting this, I'm not here to deny any of my questioning, thoughts, fantasies, dreams, etc... But I'm trying to figure things out. I have a lot of sexual history with abuse, adolescent sex and sexual/drug/alcohol addiction. I've been using porn as a coping mechanism and in all honesty, it's mostly been straight porn. But most people here and in RL have all helped and really helped me come to the conclusion, I'm not gay. Now this same revelation may change one day but from everyone's stories to advice I've been given, I truly just don't even care. I'm in a relationship with a beautiful woman who I care for and still find sexually, physically and emotionally attracted to. I'm just grateful for this site, people on this site and what y'all are really doing. Here's the funny thing, I pretty much came out to everyone about either being bi/gay or atleast questioning and got major support. And here's a message to some people out there, just because you question, think, fear or dream about same sex thoughts/desires doesn't make you gay. Again, thank you everyone. If anything, y'all have made it easier to accept myself as I am now and to not be afraid. I hope everyone here understands what I'm doing and I may be back to give an update but for now I'll be living in the real world lol. Thanks EC and I appreciate everyone on this board!
