I think I have a monster crush on a girl in one of my classes. I really like her a lot. She's funny, nerdy, geeky, and just as weird as me--that's saying something--but she's straight. Why me? I feel happy every time I see her, but then I feel like crap after. I want these feelings to go away and just be friends with her. Why does this always happen to me?! ><
Also, I'm not pursuing this, but I just feel like crap about it. I never thought I could be attracted to someone who was in a committed relationship. All of the good ones are taken at my age, though. The only ones left are screw ups like me.
FYI, I'm married to a guy and I'm 23. Got married when I was 22. I finally came out of denial about being gay. But, just because someone is married doesn't mean you really know the whole story about the situation and each person in the marriage.
You shouldn't feel bad about how you feel. "The heart wants what the hear wants." It's how you react to it that matters. And yes, it hurts to have such feeling for someone you can't have....hurts a lot.
Oh my gosh, guys! She asked for my Steam name in class tonight. I can't help but get this familiar giddy feeling. I squealed earlier. I actually squealed. @@
I'm the same way with this one girl. I am soooo happy when we do things together and i get giddy like that too but when she is about to leave i get scared and anxious and wish she would just like me back :/ If you figure out the cure-all let me know...
Look at it this way -- you have a pretty good idea of the kind of woman you're attracted to and would make you happy! Now -- find one who isn't married :icon_wink She's out there!
The same thing happened to me. Except the guy is GAY and in the closet. And he is not about to come out, or end his marriage, or have an affair. He simply wants to play around verbally, and let me know he has the hots for me, be friends (at work only), and then go home and forget about me. I feel for him and his frustration. He has only been married for a bit over a year. I'd like to tell him that it does not get better, but gets worse. At least I can go find some action elsewhere. I don't think he can. Oh well... next.
Okay, so I verified that she is married, so I can put this to bed. And, no, she's not in the closet or anything. She's happily married and completely straight. Still can't help but feel giddy about her joining my D&D group, though.
I still think crushes are better than boredom with nothing to be excited about. Even if they are unavailable (like just about all of mine), it is still kind of a good feeling to feel those feelings.
