Hey, I am worried that I am a transexual but I don't want to have a sex change and I would prefer to stay as I am but I am still worried I am a transexual. I have a couple of questions to ask to see what you think. Do you/did you get nervous around knives and scissors? Cos I do When you trimmed pubes, were you worried in case you tried to mutilate yourself? Particularly unconsciously? If you stand to close to something and it squashes your dick, are you worried that you unconsciously did it on purpose cos you know you don't want it? Do you like your body hair cos I was happy when I started growing chest hair and I like the hair on my stomach but surely that's something men have rather than women Also, when shopping did you worry that when you were walking through it that when you walked through a feminine isle you unconsciously chose to go through it because it is for females even though you are shopping for something completely random (Sorry some of these questions are more geared towards mtfs but some can work for ftms too so don't be put off about replying) That's all the questions I can think of right now but there are others Is this all something you went through? Oh also sometimes when I am in bed and I kind of lye on my front sometimes it squashes my dick and it makes me worry I am doing it on purpose
Couple more questions, did you get anxious when waking through clothes shops that have clothes for the other gender? I don't really want to start putting on makeup or wearing dresses or growing my hair long but not all women do that so I don't know if it is really an indicator
I do get nervous around knives, but for practical reasons. I don't want to accidentally cut myself or stab someone--this is a legitimate fear because of how clumsy I am. As for the other stuff... Umm... Do you have urges to get rid of your penis? If you do, that is definitely a huge red flag.
I'm not a transexual. But I think this is kind of disrespectful to them. If you are "worried" about it, you make it seem that its a bad thing. Which its not. I find it a little confusing but that's only because I'm still quite a bit ignorant to them and their lifestyle. I think that your gay. If you wanted to be a transexual, you would want the change. If you like the atributes of being a guy then you more than likely content with a being a man. Please look out about how you say things because they can come off rude and disrespectful
I don't have urges to get rid of it and tried tucking it between my legs and looking in the mirror to see if I preferred it but it didn't give me feelings of joy or anything but then I could just be in denial about it I want to keep my penis, I don't want to lose it And to the other person that posted, it is a worry I have and I am sorry if this has offended anybody, that wasn't my intention.
To me it sounds more like someone who is worried about being transgender than someone who actually is... If you're happy with your male body I'd say you're very very unlikely to be transgender.
Honestly, I don't think so. I've been through the denial thing... And I certainly didn't want to stay the same once I found out it was okay to feel wrong in your own body. I think you're just over thinking everything and need to take a calming breath and really think about if you would be happier living as a man or a woman. Personally, living as a man would be amazing for me.
Gonna take a guess at the question you're really asking here. The thought of what's called a "penectomy" - just getting rid of the darn thing - has crossed my mind. I would also never ever do it in a million years. One of the reason there are doctors doing surgery is because they wanna make sure you can still enjoy sex afterward. You've gotta keep it until then. And for the record I'm not 100% on wanting surgery myself either. Not even 50%. There's a lot more to being a girl than just your genitals. Honestly the idea of surgery for my face and cheeks and getting rid of my body hair is a lot more appealing. I know how to take care of myself down there already and will leave it at that. The thought of sharing who I am with the world and not just a few people is something I'm gonna have to figure out with my therapist. I am who I am no matter what procedures I do or don't get. If you're worried about dismembering yourself though you probably should see a doctor. Especially if you're scared around knives. As far as stores, I used to get worried about other people seeing me checking out the lingeree models or the cute running outfits. And especially when I glanced down the make-up aisle. I think this and most of what you've said is just you worried about being embarrassed. No one else really cares 90% of the time. Everyone is worried about their own problems.
Hum, bravo for what the others answered above me, sounds pretty much right. You don't sound like you're transsexual but it may be worth digging deeper into, even if it's just so you know yourself better at the end. To answer your questions personally though, no I don't know of these feelings and scares you're mentioning. I'm not afraid of knives or scissors at all. I'm not afraid of gender-based decisions I may make unconsciously and of what other people will think of it. I also shamelessly have my body tattooed and pierced a lot in order to make it more mine in at least that way. I'm also not afraid of any operations on myself either and would be very happy about those operations who aim to masculinise my body.
Thanks for your reply, yeah I have been to the doctors and I've been diagnosed with OCD, mainly obsessive thoughts but I wasn't at a severe enough level to get CBT and also they didn't specialise in mental obsessions, only outward rituals. And I think you misunderstood what I was saying about the stuff in stores. I'm not embarrassed about people seeing me check out the female stuff. I don't check it out, I just walk through the isles sometimes when I am trying to get to an aisle or walking to the till and I am worried that I unconsciously walked through the aisle because I unconsciously wanted to look at the stuff, now I am starting to realise how rediculous this all sounds haha And the only lingerie models I look at ate the male ones on front of boxer packets haha although I have thought some female models are hot at times but I don't really see them that often as I am gay so I tend to look at dudes lol I'd really rather keep my dick but I'm worried that really I don't want to ---------- Post added 6th Feb 2013 at 11:22 PM ---------- Thank you for sharing your thoughts on the topic, it has been most useful for me Maybe I should see a counsellor to talk these things through Also, I wish you all the best in your transition
I don't think anyone would ever force you to remove your penis, it kind of sounds like you need a certain confirmation for your subconscious thoughts, like are they a coincidence or not. Do you think that somewhere inside you is a girl that's trying to break free?
