Hi. Im begging to question things. Long story so please bare with me.* I'm 19, female. I grew up in a very very religious household. I still live at home and I'm still under the very religious family.* When I was younger, starting around 8 while I liked the boys at school I found an interest in celebrities like jlo. There was this one video I would watch over and over on MTV and even at the young age something about her seemed so sexy. I didn't think anything of it until now.* As I've grown up those feelings have come back. I started watching porn and the only thing that turns me on is girl on girl. I'm not finding guys that attractive and I've begun checking out women at my job. I find the celebrity women very attractive but idk how to identify. It's very stressful and idk what to do. Please help me.*
It seems like maybe you're bisexual? With preference for women? Preferences can really change a lot in a life span. I had been just thinking a bit about this today - I identify as bisexual. Sometimes I lean towards other men, and other times towards women. If it's not safe to come out to anyone close about these feelings, I'd say just let yourself wait a bit on how you feel with it all before making a final decision on how you're going to identify as/potentially coming out.
I think your religious beliefs may have gotten in the way of how you truly feel. I was your age when I knew for sure that I was gay, but I couldn't accept it at the time. I think if you like women then you should embrace your feelings, but don't write guys off entirely. I haven't thus far, yet I still haven't found a guy that I could potentially fall in love with. I'm primarily attracted to women only that's why I consider myself gay, but you're the only one who can label yourself. Just give it some time, there's no rush (*hug*)