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  1. MerBear

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    my ex always came to me when i felt i was going to break down.....like when she didn't respond for a month and i was at my breaking point , the next morning i got that email from her.....she apparently accidently sent it...but i know she did it on purpose.

    i remember when i was crying my eyes out....she was online and we talked....

    every single time , i needed her most when i thought she wasn't around or wasn't around....she'd be there....and it was so weird.....just perfect timing she came in

    anyone else have this happen?
     
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    Yes.

    The girl I loved was the first person I felt comfortable enough sharing my sexual abuse history with. I turned to her for everything I needed... she was always willing to lend an ear or a shoulder to cry on. When I found myself missing her, she would contact me in some way it seemed. Now... nothing. I fight my battles alone, I don't reply to her and she stops writing me like she used to. (Usually I wrote to her first but not always)

    It's kind of a lonely feeling, isn't it?
     
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  3. MerBear

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    i guess....

    im writing a "goodbye" email.....but i know i'll never send it
     
    #3 MerBear, Feb 8, 2013
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    Writing it out can help. It doesn't need to be sent to help you heal.
     
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    i guess not
     
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    (*hug*)
     
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    hugs never do anything for me but thank you
     
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    You're welcome. :slight_smile:
     
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    #9 MerBear, Feb 8, 2013
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    I'd say those lyrics are quite accurate in this matter.
     
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    yeah i know......i know what she means . she couldn't fool me completely
     
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    What do you mean?
     
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    she said "If I admit I like you, one of us will get hurt, I can feel it. And I can't hurt you again, I won't let myself. You deserve so much more than I could ever give you, so, yeah maybe you hurt now, but you'll get over it and move on and be happy. That's what you deserve. Me? I don't care about me. I'm wanting to let you go because that's what you need and should get. I shouldn't get what I want."

    so basically she's saying ....if i say i like you...i'll be lying and i cant do that again...

    she just didnt want to tell me.
     
    #13 MerBear, Feb 8, 2013
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    Wait a minute. So she was lying about loving you all along?
     
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    thats what im thinking. she didnt actually say that but its what i think
     
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    I see what you mean...
     
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    i shouldn't get what i want.....

    I'LL NEVER KNOW by what she meant there
     
    #17 MerBear, Feb 8, 2013
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    It does seem pretty cryptic....
     
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    cryptic?
     
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    Coded... like it's hard to understand her meaning the way that she writes.
     
    #20 myheartincheck, Feb 8, 2013
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