ever since i gave my ex scarlett , my last email...since she thought going back out wasn't a good idea and it was best for my sake if we would just go our separate ways so that's what i did , i let her go....i gave her my last email anyways i haven't been feeling right ...i just don't know anymore. i haven't cried at all , I've felt like crying sometimes but never do... anyways , ever since i gave her my last email which was maybe 2 weeks ago? im not sure , i can't remember but i feel....lost a little , like something is missing i guess.... i haven't been myself , it seems every time she came back , it was like i could breathe again like everything made sense and now it seems nothing ever will as if there is no sanity in the world i guess i just wish she'd come back even though i told her and myself that i was done i let her go , i had to it was what she wanted and i guess what i needed but all i need and want right now is her... i wish she would come back but i know she wont ..........maybe that's what's not right i feel stuck , numb....almost.... when she didn't respond to my email , i had thought she left , i spent a month crying but now that we both decided ....well....she decided first ...and so i let her go in the end.... to go our separate ways , i just haven't been right... does anyone know how to fix that? or why? is this part of the 5 steps of grieving :help:
Yes you are grieving and you will continue to do so over who knows how long. The more you are able to let go of memories and realize the relationship is over the better off you will be.
It's part of the disbelief/numb feeling that comes with denial. You will feel every emotion possible during the course of this grieving process. This is normal.
Maybe now it is more clear in your mind that it really is over. You are not surrounded by feelings of hope to get you through. The pain now is more real and you are seeing that. So you deny that this has happened at an emotional level but the head is saying something else. So you are conflicted.
People experience grief differently. Different stages may occur again. Like, if I were told I was dying, I would handle it differently than someone else. I might cry my eyes out, while someone else told the same thing might respond by getting angry. It's one of those tricks that our minds use to protect us from pain.
ugh..... it still doesn't explain why i keep hearing the songs she sent me ---------- Post added 13th Feb 2013 at 03:50 PM ---------- i guess but ...i mean , its all backwards....
