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Am I bi or gay? So confused

Discussion in 'Coming Out Advice' started by Theagonist, Feb 20, 2013.

  1. Theagonist

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    I thought I was gay for the longest time, but sometimes I feel like I'm just lying to myself. *I definitely am attracted to guys. *Every time I fantasize or masturbate I always think about guys, always. I've never dated s guy though, but I have dated girls before. *I never see a girl and think "she's so hot I want to fuck her", and do to guys all the time lol. *Since I kind of thought I might like girls, so I watched lesbian porn, and it took a few minutes but I kind of got a boner in a way (?) then today I thought about that video and I did get a boner. *I can't really get it out of my head. *I did have this Initial sexual feeling, I can't really describe it, it was weird. *I might be straight curious? Though I am or was (idk anymore) very disgusted by seeing s girl blow a guy or seeing him cum on her. *Boobs do nothing for me I guess, but they aren't a sexual organ. *I'm out at my school as gay, and going to a catholic school some people are very Douchey about it, like I was attacked last year and some guys made fun of me today because of it, I have never told my parent or any family member, but my mom kind of knows, and shes s bitch about it, like she bullies me because of it, and I felt kind of Perverted today

    I'm just really confused, I don't want to be bi; just gay, god damn it. *
     
  2. Kumyn

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    Sounds to me that you probably are homosexual! I doubt if anyone is really completely homosexual or heterosexual; it's harder to tell with straight people, as a lot bash homosexuality and they would never admit to having the slightest attraction to the same sex, when in reality, they may infact have so.

    Also, you're 16, so your hormones are going to be crazy! I wouldn't worry about it at all! From what you say, you are definitely attracted to guys, and would fall for a guy over a girl!

    I know it is confusing at this age, but you will figure out in time for definite. I am sure, however, you are in fact, as you prefer, homosexual as opposed to bisexual :slight_smile:

    ---------- Post added 20th Feb 2013 at 05:14 PM ----------

    Do you ever find the prospect of having a girlfriend attractive, or would you rather it be a boyfriend?
     
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    I think that you are confused right now because you are having a hard time at school, so you think that you might be straight because unconsciously you think that will help you to fit in when in reality deep down inside you, you know you are gay.
    I know when I was at school I too had thoughts like that, and tried to blend in with the guys saying things like how hot is that girl or taking girls on dates, even though I never felt anything for any girl.

    This is just my thought.
     
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    I'd say right now I want a boyfriend, but there was a girl who goes to my school and I think shes really pretty and nice, I kind of wanted to date, but I didnt really want to do anything sexual, at all. But she's dating in you college lol
    Idk I might be just lonely is why, and it died quickly


    Though theres a guy that I kind of like, maybe
     
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    Also can I have a yes or no answer?!!!
     
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    .......Yes, you can have a yes or no answer but I don't think no one besides you can say wether you are gay or bisexual. I think it would be wrong of me to say that you are one of those :/, but I guess that's just me and my opinion.
     
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    (I have nothing to add except, side note: love the visual.)
     
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    Hi and does it really matter what 'label you have?
    You fancy whoever you like;if you are gay that'll be mainly guys but doesn't mean you can't find girls attractive or nice to be with?
    I would spend too much effort on being 'gay' or 'bi'...you are just who you are,an individual, not a 'label'
     
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    Well, I want to know what others think ...

    ---------- Post added 21st Feb 2013 at 02:10 PM ----------

    Yes you're right, but for the benefit of explanation labels helps tremendously
     
  10. Kumyn

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    If you want my opinion, from what you say, you are gay, yes. ^^
     
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    Thank you.
     
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    I'd say you're probably gay. At least, if I were you, I'd identify as gay. I'm basically the same as you. Lesbian porn works for me, but I don't think sex would work between me and a woman. Does that help at all?
     
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    You've got tons of time and don't overreact to things. Heck as a younger man myself everything is pretty confusing in the first place; with time and experience you'll find out exactly what you want and how, but until then (And you can't rush it) it's just a journey.

    Labels like gay, straight, bi-sexual, asexual, etc are all things we use to identify ourselves at a fixed point in time. I choose to identify as gay since it's what I feel the most comfortable with; It's a process but I'm pretty happy with it and If you feel good about yourself that's all you need, identifiers aside.

    If identifying as gay makes you feel good and it's not forced from outside forces then good for you, you still may feel certain things and it's not wrong; we're all humans, who's to say what and how we'll feel the way we do?
     
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    Thank you thank you thank you. That's really I feel, and "gay" is the best way to identify myself; I just tend to overthink things all the time, I just wish I could calm done about everything... Lol time to get some weed