lately ive been getting the feeling that i'm no longer growing and developing mentally. i don't feel as if my intellectual capacity can expand any further. i'm so scared that i've already reached my limit and that i'm going to end up average. mind you, i don't mind being average. but my goals in life can't require me to be average. and my mind has been filled with bigotry for so long. only recently was i able to start expelling out the shit inside my mind. and i just don't have any privacy too and i don't feel as if i can truly sign anything to my name and for myself. i feel as if this has led me to my limit as i've completely fucked up my development. what do i do?
Just take the time to find what matters to you, and then RELAX. I feel like I'v reached my end before - its so stressful! But you can do it!
Success has been redefined in my life several times. Things I think are the goal or most pertinent, end up being completely unimportant later. And my mind seems to go through spurts of development so if you feel less productive/inspired now, you are probably just in a dormant state. Don't beat yourself up. You have a purpose that is unique and will be fulfilling! The more I relax and try not to control or plan, the more I see my big picture.
