I like my Straight friend

So yeah... these "I like my straight friend" stories are not new in this forum and I was hoping to recieve some advice. (*hug*)

For a little over a year now I've liked my friend. I've known him for over 6 years and these feelings haven't got to me until last year, in the beginning of high school school swimming season. I only saw him as a friend throughout middle school years and my first 2 years of high school. Currently, we are both juniors and I just can't stop thinking about him. I would consider myself "bi-curious," but maybe leaning more towards bi now. So anyways, when swim season started, I got to know him much more during swim meets as we sat together and talked through every single one of them. You can say I flirted with him A LOT. As the season went on, I decided that I needed to tell my girl best friend about this. She supported me and has given me so much advice I dont know how to thank her. She told me to just keep talking to him and get to know him better. There were many times where I felt like I couldnt hold it in anymore because I really wanted to tell him, but my friend stopped me from doing so, and that helped me so much more.
So now a little about my friend, he's really quiet and and just "Wow". I think he is straight but who really knows. He has never had a girlfriend but has taken a girl to homecoming which when I found out, I kinda spazzed haha. I had asked him about that and he told me "it was just a one night stand" which kinda gave me relief ha. I see him as a best friend now because of how much I talk to him now. He is just perfect.
I am currently hoping that he feels the way I feel..since I can't really type out all the stories and signs that I have noticed of him liking me back I will just bullet them.

-He has let me feed him like couples do
-Has held my waist while walking (which shocks me till today ha)
-Always smiles and waves when he sees me
-Has "grabbed" my face like he was about to kiss me when I said my skin feels soft ha
-Told me that if I ever needed help he would help me
-Carressed my legs when I "jokingly" but them in his lap saying I needed more space
-Took my phone, and I tried taking it back and he puts it at his crouch :lol:
-Has gone to the movies and watched a school play with me when asked

That is all I can remember for now... but the thing that totally crushes is me is that he seems totally oblivious to how much I really like him. We dont have much communication outside of school as he really text and never gets on facebook. Over the past month, my feelings have grown stronger for him to the point I can't concentrate on anything.
To make matters worse, my girl best friend had recently told me that one of my girl-friends( lets call her P ) has started to like this guy :bang: . Shes been hogging him a lot lately and I watch miserably because P is sorta in the same batch of friends as me and this guy. I really feel like its time that I told him... and I was planning on telling him tommorow. Any advice? :help:

Sorry if I made this post really confusing I kinda rushed this. :eusa_doh:
Thank guys >.<

 

Thanks guys for the advice unfortunately I chickened out and just couldnt tell him :/ I think its due to the fact that after spring break, we havent talked a lot...my mind just tells me to not do anything... I dont know how to get him to have a one on one where I can just tell him x.x

 

Yeah that was my plan haha :/ im going to try tommorow >.< and sadly high school swimming ended and we swim for different clubs so thats not an option for me anymore :/

 

Ahaha I feel so thankful for you guys I still haven't said anything because thats how scared I am, everytime we talk I always think "hmm... i'll tell him another day" because I get that really happy feeling haha. I am planing on calling him later today to ask if we could talk tommorow during lunch... funny thing is I've texted him before asking if I could tell him something and he acted really oblivious to what I had to say when the words I texted had a "i like you" feel lol.

---------- Post added 14th Apr 2013 at 04:15 PM ----------

nope he doesnt know that I am bi for him ha

 

I don't know if people are still following this post, but as of now things are pretty chill. I decided to tell him in April and I thought I just made the worst mistake in my life. From April to like November, it was a really hard period to coop with because he ignored me yet pretended to care, so it seemed. He started to text me frequently near the end of the year and I had enough. I asked him why he was doing this and he gave me the most unexpected response. He explained that no matter what he did after that text to him, it would hurt me and so he decided to let everything settle down. He was actually worried for me during the period that I was really upset and actually tried to seek help without letting me know. There's so much more to tell, but to make things short, he was my best friend in the end. But I am still hurting because almost every week since his explanation, we've had so many arguments about the littlest insignificant things. In the end of all them, tears. Not all of them were tears of pain but understanding. But he is always the first one to say sorry for everything which makes me think if he actually is sorry or saying it to end the convo, which makes me feel bad yet angry.

Another thing that got me really thinking, we was when in the midst of a convo about my friend comforting me, I said "so basically your saying if I was a girl, things would be normal," he said "yes, its not your fault (etc.)" I feel like I would have a chance if I was a girl...I dont know if other people have had the same feeling. He continues to say if I need any help I could let him know. He continues to help me with problems and really tries to cheer me up. I think I am just trying to deal with disappointment and overcoming this.

My last problem I feel like I need to address is the fact that the way we text is completely different on how we act in real life, its like two different worlds. He seems so caring and sophisticated while texting, but in real life, its so awkward. When he talks to me in real life, hes really either excited about something and talks to me while looking me in the eyes or just really quiet, looking down, and sometimes distancing himself from me. I try my best to be very open to him and not get things awkward but idk. I still have the fear of being too annoying, which makes me stay quiet sometimes. I feel like if I got an inch closer, or made any physical contact with him (like a hug) , he would freak out.

I think one factor that really affects this whole situation is that he is christian, and he told me that his faith in God got him through his ups and downs. He specifically told me that one day if I choose, I will get through this and find myself a woman. And I will be able to treat her with the best care and will know what she wants and what she doesn't because I've experienced it. Idk. I dont really know who I am yet and I dont think he does either.

I want to hear what you guys think about this... I feel like I should just chill out and just continue my year without thinking of him anymore than a friend, but it's hard, really. Any advice would be helpful thanks .

---------- Post added 12th Jan 2014 at 04:50 PM ----------

Sorry for not replying to all these posts, I just read all these and still do really appreciate you guys for your advice and opinions . sorry for the extremely late update