I've always know that I should be attracted to guys, but now that I'm older I can finally recognize that i am attracted to women as well. I guess I would consider myself bisexual and this scares crap out of me. I love my family, every single one of them, but sharing these feelings with any of them would mean losing them. It's such a stigma within my Indian family that even my brother, who is like my best friend, would shut me out. I could never live without my family, but I don't want to spend the rest of my life pretending to be someone else, just like high school. I want to talk to someone but there is literally no one in my life who would understand... What should I do?
Oh hun...I'm so sorry you have to make this choice. :icon_sad: Well, you're in a fork in the road with your life. You can either live to make others happy at your own expense; or make yourself happy and basically start from scratch. I can tell you that from my own experience that making others happy at my mental expense led to living 20 years of an empty life. I've lost about 25% of my old life by coming out; but I've reached out into the GLBT community and gained quite a bit of it back. I can't imagine how painful an all or nothing situation must feel. You need a (*hug*)! Is there a local GLBT center that you can contact for help?
Sorry, but your situation just reminded me of this awesome movie Bend It Like Beckham - Full Movie - YouTube the moment starting at 59:02 I hope you can at least talk to someone you trust.
