Um-there's really something so wonderful?

About me coming out...well,I feel like i've always been somewhat atttracted to girls,you know-the friend that stares at the other friends boobs-but when I was little i'd never heard the word 'lesbian'.I had typical crushes on boys but never dated longer than one day.I kinda didn't get it.I wanted to hang around them and be like them,but eventually i'd get called a slut.The past three years it's been the most prominent.My first big crush on a girl was in 6th grade,but I ended up fighting her friend because I went up to her and asked her why she didn't like me.The next year I was pretty much hiding,then had a drastic change.I began working out,dressing different and actually finding real guy friends.I created an ego called Matthaias,who stars in the novel i've been writing since then.He's every thing I want to be-careless of other's opinions,strong,intelligent;the typical dude.I actually started dating-my first girlfriend (Liz) since the 26th of April.I'm shy around her mostly,but I express myself with lots of poetry.at first I knew nothing about her,but then I got her # and had a satisfying conversation with her-only a lil phone sex..Not.We get along well now,but I still don't know how to act around her.Like a boyfriend.Liz is bi,and sometimes that annoys me.I usually go to my 2 gay friends, who are helpful.My mom started suspecting my sexuality when I started talking about her,and now i'm at the edge of coming out to her.I was visiting an old friend,who asked me if I had a guy.No.He asked me if I had a girlfriend,and I could'nt contain my embarassment.Later my mom asked me about the guys I know,and if I was going out with any of them.No.My dad is clueless on the topic,and a very bible thumping' ex-minister.Please help..:bang: :help:​

 

Thanx.I think I should wait untill things settle down in my house because I think that if anything else happened that was major it would get worse.And now my dad is trying to scare me me by reading passages from the bible about sinners.It's a wonderful world,ain't it?

 

I did it yesterday on my dad's birthday!It just burst out and he didn't approve.He put his head in his hands and I was still talking,saying that i'd still be the same person and all that.I went into my room,shut of the lights and listened to Cerveris on full blast.:icon_sad: Then I didn't wake up this mornig so my mom drove me to school and she said that being gay was a fad at my school.I told her it wasn't,then told her I was a lesbian and she said stuff like "that isn't you" and "stop hanging around those people" :tantrum: Then we didn't talk.When I got to school I was crying,and I asked the gym teach to see the counselor,of whom i'd never talked to.She was very nice and said that I should try to get them to understand.She let Liz (girlfriend) come down and I told her,then I went to her social studies instead of me going to lunch and being aroun the f-ing homophobes.I'm in a way bettter mood now though.

 

Thanks.

 

Who is Becky?I think i'd be interested in PFLAG.

 

Thanks,I'm gonna go there later.