I Finally Did It!

So since I've been off for a little over week now I've been seriously stressing out over college and everything to the point where I seriously thought that someone was going to have to take me to the hospital. But some good came out of everything. Last night everything came to a head and I just couldn't ignore it anymore. I was having serious physical dysphoria and I just couldn't wait anymore to do it and... I told my mom. Last night. I had every intention of doing it and I was freaking out horribly about it to the point where I really thought someone was going to have to take me to the hospital, but as everyone was going to bed I kept her in the room with me for a while until I could finally get it out there. And she was ok with it!

I don't think she really understands what being transgender means, but she said she'd love me no matter what so I feel WAY better now. However now I'm kind of terrified because being in the closet meant that I was just talking about what I am. Now I'm actually doing something about it and it's really scary and I'm seriously second guessing myself. I hope it'll pass really soon and go back to me being excited.

My keyboard isn't fixed yet and our internet is turned off, but I'll be back on soon. That news was just so good I had to sit here with the virtual keyboard and type it.

SO....

I'M FREEEEEEEEE!!! Mostly. I've still got a lot of people to come out to, but the worst of it is behind me as far as coming out goes.