[From You] Came out to a friend [Local Drunkard]

So last night I was drinking (Which I have pictures of in my album if you need any proof). And basically during this drinking somehow me and a friend (who were pretty much up when everyone was passing out) got talking in the hallway outside of my friend's appartment. And basically he was having issues with this girl...and if he really wants her...and the word asexual came up alot but what he says, "I say it as a joke?" Mind you this was a very drunk convo. So basically he had sex with this girl...which he says it's rare for him to find a girl who feels special enough, and that he didn't think it was right to have sex with this girl. And all the while he sorta kept hinting towards my homosexuality.

And I was like, "Okay I am." And then he was like, "That's why we get along, we are both the same in a way (He wasn't saying he was gay..He was trying to say something else)." And then he continued talking about this girl. And how he doesn't feel right to be with her. But how he kinda wants to be with her? I don't know. It's all a little uuh...foggy.

So anyways I told him I was gay. He was cool with it. He actually said he really respected me for comming out to my family. And he says he respects me for dealing with it uhh...so well. Basically he had to fish it out of me. But I said it. And I don't know if he remembers what was discussed, I mean I'm sure he will.

The next step really is to talk to him about it. Which I'll do over MSN. But gawd. It felt so good to just let the booze take place and just say it. I mean no regrets. No hesitation. I was just like, "Yep. It's me."

Now I'm a little scared because my friend happened to be yelling everything. And I'm just worried if anyone heard the conversation. Xept when we had it everyone was passed out. But still.

I mean today, for my hangover activity I went to a car show. COMPLETELY SOBER. No drinking. Just cars and sausages and lemonade and pretty blockhouse island. And then after that we went out for dinner. Just me and my 19 year old friends who all got drunk while I waited to order my food.

Anyways this girl that I'm sorta friends with (it's a mutual respect) starts saying how I can't say anything about sex because I know nothing about women. And then she started flapping her head and was like, "There's no way your straight. At least Bi. But I wouldn't even believe that."

And I'm here like, -awkward smile-

I mean I was half tempted to say, "Well I'm gay." But honestly my straight crush was there. Recently just talking about how these fags were trying to hit on him. My best friend was there who would never believe I'm gay. That girl who said this stuff was there. This other hot guy was there who acts much like a frat bro. It'd be, "I'm gay."

*the table pauses and stares*

*Phil puts a twenty on the table and walks out of the pub*

-_- I'm glad that I might have a friend now though. Someone who understands my problem.

But maybe all it was was drunk talking.

Frig though. When I start comming out. I gotta stop drinking. HAHA!

 

Well techincally it's not my first. It's my first one that didn't feel like complete and utter doom was comming to me. It just felt..like non-stressful. Like once I said it the conversation continued. Like I just told him I had actually blond hair or something. It was a very nice way to come out. Specially when he told me he was understanding. And he respected me even.

GOSH

 

Hahahah I still haven't had the chance to talk to him on MSN

 

Of course I would keep you guys in touch. It'd be like not writing an end to the most amazing novel ever.

And I would never keep you guys hanging...never ever *looks awkwardly upwards and then does the Stephen Harper smile *

 

Well basically over MSN I said, "You haven't told anybody about our conversation, have you."
"Of course not."
"Oh okay."

>_>

It's just that a different friend made a gay joke about me. And I was like, "What are you implying?"