Came out?

So when I was in ninth grade, I came out to a few friends. Some believed me, others didn't. Later in tenth grade, I was talking to a gay friend, trying to.convince him I was also not straight.

Before all this happened, my mother found some pictures on my tablet. Needless to say, I just deleted them and we didn't talk about it. The next day I felt awkward around her. She brought up the pictures and I didn't respond.

A few months later, logging into Facebook through my sisters phone(didn't have a phone back then but now i do) well I never logged out, thus causing my sister and her boyfriend to read my messages.
I came home from school and my mom asked me if everything was okay. I said yea and then she said it wasn't. She then asked me if I was gay. I had to tell her the truth and then she said I was.never going to be happy in life, guys were going to use me(like people don't do that already) and she said she didn't accept it but couldn't do anything about it. She told me to have sex with a girl before I decide but I know what I want.

Later that day, I erased my sister and her boyfriend from my Facebook and I told myself that my sister was dead to me.

Three days later I forgave her because i am incapable of hate.

To this day, my mom hasn't talked about it. I've come to embrace my gay side more. Telling basically all my friends and not feeling guilty about thinking a guy is hot.

I wasn't ready to come out to her and I'm still not ready to come out to everyone. But then again, it's just the rest of my family members I don't want to tell. Next time someone asks if I'm gay, I'll probably say yes.(&&&)