After years of trying to convince myself I am bi and could be happy with a man, I finally came out to myself a few weeks ago. I have had a really awful (but consensual) experience with a man, but I was determined to blame that on factors other than his gender. In truth, I broke up with him because I couldn't stand the thought of more sex with him! And his strong masculine smell. I think I'm allergic to men or something. I don't know why I felt I had to be bi. I told my mom yesterday. She said she didn't see it coming, which is odd because I think I'm so obviously gay. It's not that I look butch or anything, I just think it's obvious how I favor women. I asked my mom if she was disappointed and she said no. I should hope not! I wonder if I now need to come out to everyone else. Most of my friends will be totally cool. One of my best friends is bi, she was in a long relationship with a woman before her current one with a man. Anyway, I'm happier since realizing who I really am.
