my coming out story

From a young age i had always known that i was "different". I always preferred to dress in male clothes ( shirts trousers etc ) i always hated high heels and skirts that sort of thing. Never liked make up. But I never thought anything of it until recently.

I always said i was straight but just after my 15th birthday i felt a bit confused as to what i really liked. Ill'd look at pictures of what other girls class as "hot" men but i was just never fussed i just didn't find any male attractive to be honest.

So one night me and one of my best male friends ( who happens to be gay :icon_bigg ) were talking on facebook and somehow we got onto the topic of sexuality. If i remember right he was asking me if i was straight,bi or gay. And i just said i was confused as to what i liked and he said to me " well to be honest i think you're gay" so then i told him that i had looked at "frisky" pictures of females i did feel slightly aroused by it but then instantly felt it was wrong and always denied that i liked women. So even longer story short he just helped me accept my sexuality etc.

So after that i remained bi for about a week to just determine whether i liked males and females or just females. Then after that week i finally come to terms that i am gay! :icon_bigg

After about another week i felt like i was ready to tell my mum. Now i was scared as to what her reaction would be like seeing she is homophobic :icon_sad: but she had always said she would accept me for who i am so i tried and it ended up her thinking i was joking :***: :bang: :tears: so i just felt depressed then i was talking to the best friend ( ill refer to him as A ) he just helped me etc then i just got over it and carried on feeling Gay and proud :icon_bigg

so moving on to now ( well about 1-2 weeks ago ) I was just going on facebook now without even thinking i just posted some gay pride stuff and now my mum deiced she wanted to have a look at my facebook and now i remembered i had posted the stuff i had and it was too late! she looked at it! :eusa_doh: :icon_redf but then i thought nope she can see it i dont care! She never said anything. I kept dropping slight hints that im gay. So from that day on i think she has finally accepted me :icon_bigg .

I still dont have to guts to come out to her again so ill leave that for the future. I think my brother has found out too and he's not too happy. Dads out of the picture so i dont have to worry about him. As far as i know my sister doesn't know.

Well thats my story thanks for reading :icon_bigg

 

nope but before i tried coming out to her she always used to joke around about boys and that sort of thing but ever since iv'e been hinting shes not said anything

 

i will do dw i dont mind you saying. she could be im just not sure