Hey, everyone. This might be boring and seems a tad pointless to me but I'd like to put it out there anyway. This happened two years ago next month. I realised I was gay when I was 11 or 12 after watching some porn and drifting towards gay porn. Soon I was caught and my mum said what I had looked at was 'disgusting' - she didn't believe me when I naively tried to argue that the laptop had been hacked. It never occurred to me that being caught watching gay porn might have informed my parents that I was gay, but honestly I still hadn't given any thought to sexuality in general at all at that time. Two years ago, just after completing my penultimate exam (and probably in some kind of stress-induced hormonal tornado, even though I don't ever worry about exams), I made the fatal mistake of going and kissing a friend I thought was into me when no one else was around. I was wrong. He pushed me about angrily but said he wouldn't tell anyone. When I got home, still shaken from what I had done, my mum notoced something was wrong but only when the phone rang did she understand. It was the headmaster, saying he had received a serious complaint from a student about an unwanted sexual advance from me. So I was sat down and was forced out of the closet I had never fully understood. My mum said she was okay and kind of always knew, though I'm sure she's still a bit uncomfortable with it. The deputy headmaster came to my house that night to get my version of events and soon everything was sorted out, though to this day I have never seen the friend I tried to kiss. My dad found out too and was completely fine with it, my older brother knows too - I'm sure of it. There have been a few jokes at my expense since and a fair bit of borderline offensive banter because news spreads fast in a school, but I have had some nice support. A few months later in the new school year I came out to two friends when they asked me whether i thought a guy in our class was hot. Bith of them weren't surprised and didn't really care (in a nice way). That's all really. Glad I got that out.
