long story, but i really need help

So there's been a guy I've had an on and off crush on since freshman year (i'm a junior now). He's one of my best friends, and it's getting really complicated, and I really need your guys advice, or at least to vent. This is the same guy I've posted about before.
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So me and "Simon" have been friends since freshman year. We met at the mall through a friend. Ever since we became really good friends. I've had a crush on him ever since, but I've dated girls, and so has he, so nothing between us ever really happened, other than me suspecting he was gay or bi and completely crushing on him.

He would always cuddle with me, and hold my hands as a joke, and would say he's my boyfriend, and stuff such as. It was amazing

More recently, things have become really complicated. A few weeks ago, probably a little over a month ago, we met a gay guy, "Dylan" and it seemed like he hung out with the group every weekend. He also started crushing on Simon, and believe me I was jealous. Simon and Dillon became really close, and everyone started suspecting that something between them was happening. I really hated Dylan, not only because of him liking Simon, but also because he was ruining friendships between me and Simon, and other friends and Simon just so he could get closer to him. There were times that I wouldn't be invited places, because of Dylan, and that was horrible, because they were my friends before Dylan ever came into the picture.

One night, I did something i regret more than anything, there were some good effects, but I still regret it. I made out with Dylan on a dare, and afterwards he pretty much called all of my friends in the group, and told them i was bi (i told him before, when we first met him, because he seemed trustworthy). Everyone was okay with it and no one treats me any different, and Simon was really okay with it, and helped me out alot.

One night, Simon told me and Dylan that he was curious. Well it was more directed to Dylan, but it was only the three of us. And yes it really did hurt. They spent so much time just talking, and I sat there awkwardly. I really like him, and I hated being there, but I couldn't leave, they were at MY house. And I heard Dylan whisper to Simon that I was jealous of what was going on between Dylan and Simon, and I was, and I probably did argue with Dylan about it, haha.

Well that night passed, and ever since Dylan became a complete jack ass to me. I told Simon, and everyone else in the group. He said he had "power" over me and could ruin my life, and this definitely pissed everyone off, and everyone and Simon defended me, which meant alot. Pretty much everyone has stopped talking to Dylan, but I'm pretty sure Simon still talks to him.

But thats not the most complicated part. A few days after Simon said he was curious, he asks one of my best friends, "Allie" out on a date. Allie called me the night it happened, and told me, and asked me if I was okay with it (She knew I liked him, she was one of the first people I came out to), and asked me if I still liked him. I lied and told her No. She liked him too. So does pretty much every other girl that I've talked to recently, but he is super cute . Well, they became really close, and are now together. It hurts seeing them together, I really liked him. I mean I'm so happy for them, they make such a nice couple. She really likes him (i've spent so many hours on the phone with her talking about it) and He seems to really like her. I am really happy for them, but I'm not really happy for myself.

I haven't been able to get him off my mind, in school I'll blank out and all i can think of is him, i can't sleep, and so many songs remind me of him. When he comes around, my heart really does skip a beat and I become really nervous, even though we've been really good friends for so long. I mean usually when someone calls me on the phone, I usually have something to talk about, but when he calls me, I'm so nervous, and don't know what to say, and sometime take forever to reply to his texts, because i don't know what to say (haha i know it sounds really stupid.) I mean he's one of my best friends, i shouldn't have to do this.

I decided that I needed to get over him, so I asked a girl who I knew kind of liked me out on a date to get him off my mind. That weekend I was supposed to hang out with him too, and I was way more excited for that then my date, which was a horrible feeling. I fealt like an ass for using "Morgan." I went on the date, and it went great. We went to the movies and saw Yes Man. Halfway through the movie Simon and Allie snuck into our movie to find us. (we were going to meet up after so they could meet Morgan, since they were on a date too). When he came into the movie and sat next to me, I became even nervouser than I was with just Morgan, but I was so happy he was there.

After wards we hung out for a bit, until Morgan had to leave, so me, Simon, Allie, and some other friends (not Dylan, because I told them that I don't want anything to with him).

I am starting to like Morgan, but I still like Simon, alot.
It's a weird feeling, and I hate it. I really think Allie and Simon are a good couple and they are both really good friends, and I think me and Morgan would have a good relationship, but still.

What do I do? I need to get him off my mind. I don't want to think about him anymore like that. I'm tired of spending so much time thinking about something that will never happen, even though he did say he was curious, I doubt anything between me and him would ever happen, even though I wish it would.

sorry this was so long. but i really needed to get it all out.

 

sorry for double posting. but i put this in the wrong forum. how do i move it?
its supposed to be in the advice section

 

yeah im thinking me and morgan can have a good relationship hopefully..
and haha yes, yes man was a good movie!
(but how do i move this topic to the right section. sorry about that, i must have clicked the wrng section)

 

thanks so much.
i will definitely listen to your advice, it really helped.
i probably wont talk to him about it though, i want to, but i doubt i can get enough courage to do it. and i dont want to risk our friendship.
and you are good at giving advice

thanks to everyone else too

 

so today, funniest thing, allie called me worried that simon was gay because of the wa he's been acting lately. and ishe sad if he is, he's all mine. haha idk i thought it was funny

 

yeah thats what i was thinking. if the oppurtunity ever does arise, i will talk to him, but not yet. and i definitely will keep you updated.

yeah i helped get them together too, and i feel so weird seeing them together too.

you have to keep me updated too!