I suppose i have made a start

hello,

as you can see i am new to this forum.
I just want to say about my coming out well the beginning of it and even you guys have any suggestions or advice.

Well i think i properly began to question my sexuality at about 15 but looking back now i had crushes on many guys but just didnt know what i was feeling at the time.

I was firmly in the closet slowly getting more and more confidence and accepting who i am. And beginning to feel proud of who i am and realised that it was time to come out.

I chose my best friend as the first person to tell as i had known her for years and i knew that she was not homophobic but it didnt recieve the greatest but certainly not the worse reaction. I basically told her i was gay and she just replied "really?" and i said yes and thats been it. This was way back in March there has been small hints such as saying would i adopt like dolc and gabbana which i thought was a really stupid thing to say. Basically because i didnt know they were two men and she has always known that i am not keen on the idea of children.

The next couple of months were rather rough, this knocked my confidence i began questioning myself and whether i would stay closeted or try again. What built up my confidence was buying GT (gay times) and it just confirmed to me again that i am gay. I thought that i need to come out sooner rather than later so i began writing my thoughts down and what i would try to say when coming out. Possibly a big mistake, or a good one i am still unsure.

I had left this journal out and my mum found it!!!!
She confronted to me about it and said that she loved me no matter what and she didnt care who i was attracted to as long i was happy. I was really pleased with this and thought wow good work. She even told me how she had read history on homosexuality i thought very good sign.

A couple of days later she came into my room and was saying that she thought it might be a phase and asked whether i would take it up the arse (she was not as crude as that) i was basicaaly shocked i didnt know how to react. I know it will be a shock for her but saying it is a phase really angered me. But sionce then no word i kinda want to approach her but i know it will be a very uncomfortable cono but she says "i love you" a lot more so that could be a good sign.

This is the last bit i promise..
My mum told my sister she asked me first and i agreed. She is very liberal and her best friend is a lesbian so i thought she would be fine. I think she is ok but said to my mum that i will probably not know for a more years which i think could be where the phase thing came from. But i know my sister would not have meant it in that way.

Anyway thanks for reading, sorry it was so long but it has been a great relief to just tell people.
I think it has been going well but would it be a good idea to confront them about it or wait fro them to come to me?

Cheers

 

this is true.
The think is when i meet new people they usually end up asking if i am gay but sometimes i can see myself saying yes i am but then at the last second i just chicken out

i guess because they might know one of my friends