Today I told my sister that I'm attracted to women. She was begging to know my secret, so I texted her. She replied that she already knew because she read something I wrote a few years ago and she read a text from my gay friend. Then, of course, she stuck in some awkward conversation about Raven Symone and said she won't tell my mom I'm bi. Except I'm not bi! I replied that I'm not bi and I don't have a label. Then she says, oh! So you must be a lesbian! And I just said again, I don't use labels. I do personally identify as gay but I'm not completely comfortable with myself to scream it out and I also feel like telling others my label kind of boxes me in in their mind and if I ever were to date a man, in their mind it would invalidate not only my sexuality but all LGBT people. I know I'm supposed to feel relieved that I told her and she reacted positively, but I feel so weird now like our relationship is never going to be the same. That and I'm still not comfortable with myself ☹️ Just had to blurt that out to someone other than my two LGBT friends, lol!
I've been hinting to my little sister for some time now, but I don't think she'll ever figure it out unless I straight up tell her. I mean: Sister: Who's your crush? Me: Not telling. S: Are they annoying? Me: No. S: I thought all boys your age were annoying. Me: ... S: But he isn't, right. I get it.
I understand how you're feeling. I don't use labels too for the same reason you stated; it puts up boundaries and destroys society's mind if you happen to date a guy. Plus, stereotypes. Is she acting differently around you now? I doubt her opinion changed towards you just because you like girls. Btw congrats on your coming out, takes courage heh ^^
